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If you are struggling with any eating disorder please talk to someone about it and seek help. You are both beautiful and stunning.♡
Y/N POV:
I sat in Billy and I's shared bedroom in silence, staring at the ceiling, trying to distract myself from my unnerving thoughts. I was taken out of my thoughts when a sharp pain erupted within my stomach, my stomach felt as thought it was screaming for food. Billy has been busy doing his own thing..(aka killing) and I've been by myself most of the time. Due to that I've been hanging out with my friends more but I'm now starting to realize how damaging that has been for me. They're toxic, they criticize me all the time..but I thought that they were just looking out for me. Looking for what is in my best interest, I have mistaken their cruelty for something friendly, kind even.
I went to the mall with my friends, we went to try on clothes for ourselves. I found a really cute top that I liked and tried it on, but one of my friends commented on how big my stomach looks. "Chubby," she called it. At first I brushed it off and bought the top anyways but when I got home after the mall I stared at my body for what seemed like hours. When looking at my own reflection I then realized how big I really was. When I came upon that realization tears seeped their way into my eyes, I threw the top away. I felt both ashamed and disgusted with myself.
Ever since then I've been skipping meals, I've been wearing baggy clothes for no one to really notice. But whenever I do eat, I puke it up. Billy hasn't noticed due to him killing people for the past month.
Let out a deep sigh, I got off the bed and put on my fuzzy slippers. But as soon as I got up the smell of bacon and eggs hit my nose.
My stomach growled loudly due to the heavenly smell, my mouth started to water. I heard movement downstairs, along with Billy singing. I giggled softly and walked downstairs. As soon as I walked downstairs I was engulfed in a hug. But as soon as his arms were wrapped around me I could feel him stiffen a bit. It was only for a second though, if I didn't pay attention I wouldn't have even noticed. I missed hugging Billy though, he smelled like vanilla and lavender. I placed my head on his chest listening to the sound of his heart beat, it put me at ease knowing he was within my grasp.
"I missed you sweetheart, im sorry that I've been gone lately. You know how busy it gets for me, but now im all yours." He kissed my head and held my hand, but when he touched my hand he immediately looked down at it. He looked at my hand then at me, I could see a bit of worry in his eyes. He led us to the table and pulled out my chair for me.
"I made breakfast, I know how much you like eggs and bacon for breakfast. I also made you waffles, your favorite." He looked at me with his perfect smile, exposing his white perfect teeth.
It took me a moment for this whole situation to sink in, panic then started to blossom within my chest. Causing me discomfort. The realization of me having to eat caused my heart to beat fast. Billy immediately took notice of my state, knitting his eyebrows in confusion.
"Whats wrong baby? Are you okay? You look worried." His spoke with worry evident in his voice.
"I-im fine, thank you for b-breakfast." I spoke softly as I looked at the floor trying to not look at the food. Small droplets of sweat began to form on my forehead.
I could tell that Billy didn't buy it, he was looking at me. I felt as though he was examining me. He started to eat his food but every time he took a bite of his food he would glance at me. I picked up both the knife and fork with my hands but they were shaking. I really didn't want to eat, I felt like crying. I started to cut into the waffles but I was doing it very slowly to buy myself time.
"Y/n...why aren't you eating? I'm halfway done with my plate and you haven't even touched anything. Do you not like it?" He looked into my eyes, it felt as though he was looking into my soul.
I was speakless, I didn't know what to do. He got up from his chair and stood beside me, he took the fork from my hand and got a bit of the waffles. He put the fork infront of my mouth and spoke sternly.
"Eat y/n." His voice was soft but stern at the same time. I knew that he wasn't asking, he was telling me.
He started bringing the fork closer to my mouth and thats when I snapped. I slapped his hand out of the way and quickly got up. I ran up the stairs as fast as I could.
"Y/N!!!" Billy yelled my name and I heard him running after me.
I went into our bedroomand locked the door. I went onto the bed and curled up into a ball, I started crying. I could hear Billy calling my name and banging on the door.
"Y/n open this door!" After he said that he started to bang onto the door even harder.
"Y/n if you don't open this door I swear to God I'll break it." His voice sounded angry.
I only cried more. I then heard the door burst open. There was a big thud as the door fell onto the floor. I let out a scream and tried scrambling away but Billy beat me to it. He got on top of me and pinned my wrists above my head casuing me to whimper. I tried getting out but it was no use, he was stronger then me. I gave up, I was breathing heavily. Billy looked down at me and stared at me.
"Why haven't you been eating?" His voice was deep and scary.
"I-I don't know what your talking about." I started to panic.
"Don't give me that shit y/n. I can tell that you haven't been eating. Your face look like its caving in and your cold. Your eyes look dead and when I hugged you earlier I could feel your ribs." His voice softened a bit but I was still panicking.
He then lifted up my shirt exposing me, I gasped and tried getting him off me. He lowered down his head and put his hands on both sides of my stomach. He started to touch the outline of my ribs and kissed them. I let out a whimper.
"Why would you do this? You're so beautiful y/n."
His voice broke a bit at the end of his sentence. He continued to kiss my ribs and slowly went down to kiss my stomach.
When I didn't respond to him his grip tightened on my sides making me let out painful whimper.
"O-one of my friends told me that I-I looked fat." I started crying, it hurt so much. My body hurts.
He let out a growl and brought his head to mine and looked deep into my eyes.
"I'm not going to allow you to do this to yourself, and your crazy if you think im just going to sit here and watch you slowly kill yourself."
After he said that he wipped away my tears and kissed my cheeks.
"I love you y/n."
"I love you too Billy."
He looked at me with adoration, im so lucky to have him.
"Now I have to kill somebody else.." I heard Billy say this under his breath.
"What?"
"Nothing..."
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The girl who told you you were fat died a few hours later...
