Eunoia

Chapter 2 : It Will Fade

2012-12-22

"Lauren come down the breakfast is ready" I heard my mom calling me from down stairs, "okay mom I will be down in a second" I replied, I was reading one of my favorite book that i read maybe a trillion time or more, it's called (Girl Online) by Zoe Sugg, it was the book that made me love books and made me a book lover, maybe you will not believe me but it also changed my life.

I removed my glasses, replaced it on the book and wore my slippers and jakcet because it was in the middle of the winter and the floor was freezing cold.

I ran downstairs since I was hungry and smelled the sweetness of the pancake all around the house, I saw my mother flipping the pancakes in the pan, she saw me and said
"Oh hey sweetie so how was your big exam yesterday my little graduated daughter?" while she smiled big, "yeah its alright i guess" I said with a fake smile, "So are you excited for Christmas its just in 3 days!" She said while she throws the pancakes in the plate and brought it in the table, "Yeah I'm so excited but it will be the worst Christmas ever because i have to leave the day after it" I said with a grimace on my face, "its alright honey, at least your going to an amazing city!", "yeah your right".

After we ate, myself and mom decided to go for a walk in the garden in our neighborhood, i wore a mustered colored coat with brown jeans and red hunter boots, while mom put her orang silky hair in a bun and wore a black formal coat with with brown boats.

"So you know that your birthday is after Christmas, so your spending it with jenna in Los Angles" She said, "Yeah i know, I'm nervous to spend it away from you guys" I said with a disappointed tone, "will i have a little surprise for you" she put her hand on her pocket and it was a box colored torques with white ribbon on it, and handed it to me "open it" she said, I then slightly drag the white ribbon and it perfectly un loops it self, I then open the torques box and found a beautiful, pretty, stunning and breath taking necklace, it was shaped as a butterfly, a petite butterfly with it wings spread out and it color was rose gold with a little shiny diamond in the end of it wings.

I was breathless when I saw it, i hugged my mom like a child hugs it teddy bear, i just felt that my heart is smiling from my happiness, "thank you mom, this is the best gift and necklace I ever seen!" I said, "oh darling, this is the least thing I could give you".

After a while of talking I noticed that single moms is not that bad, I used to hate that mom have not got anyone unless me, but I think its good for her, And she had always encouraged me that women take over the world, and boys is just a second thing, and I believed her, but I never thought of having a love in my life or expiring that, so I was afraid of what future holds for me, and how I will experience that away from my home.

After thinking of what future holds for me, my thoughts were cramming after each other, and I just lost focus, heart beats faster than I think, and I kept sweating and couldn't breath, my mom looked at me and said "Love are you alright ?" I couldn't reply "come her sit" she pulled me to the wooden chair nearest to us, "sit" she said worrying, I just kept inhaling and exhaling, it was the worst feeling ever, after maybe fifteen minute of inhaling and exhaling I felt a little bit normal and after I explained to my mom how I felt, my worries left a little when she said "its fine sweetie, your dad had this problem, it will fade out just don't worry" I then felt a little safer.