Broken.

Chapter 9 {Anxiety}

AN// This chapter is a really serious one, It deals with Depression and anxiety, which I suffer from. I feel like this is a good way to get it out of my system, is to read, This is going to be sad, but I hope you like it!

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Toni's Pov-

I just got home from dinner with Nash and Abby, it was fun. I went upstairs to my room and saw a not on my bed, I opened the note:

Dear Toni, How many times do I have to say sorry. Please just forgive me. I need you, You are my world Toni. Just please. Talk to me. I know you still love me. I love you. I'll see you at school tomorrow. 
        Love Jack, xoxo 

I just stared at the note. I can't go to school tomorrow. I need to stay home, I can't face him. Not yet, not now. I just need to get my mind off of this. So I decide to call Kris.

Kris please come over, I want to record a video. Bring your Guitar.

On my way Toni, See you soon.

Just walk in when you get here.

I said and then hung up. About five minutes later Kris came up to my room with her guitar.

"Ready To Film?" I ask her getting my camera ready.

"Yea, Just tell me the song so I can get my guitar ready." She said getting her guitar out of the case.

"Pretending by Ryan Beatty." I replied and she looked at me.

"You only sing that song when you are hurt." She says with a sigh but get her guitar tuned.

 I turned on my camera. "Hi Guys! Its Toni! I am back with a new cover! I am also here with one of my best friends who has been there for me no matter what! Kris!" I said.

"Hi! I am so happy to be here with my best friend! And of course I am going to be the guitarist." She said giggling.

"So this song means so much to me. It is Pretending by Ryan Beatty. This song just really gets me. I have always sang this when im truly hurt, So here I go. Hope you enjoy." I said holding back my tears. Kris starts strumming.

Time, time is what you said that you were needing, away from me,

But I, I guess that I was too far in the distance, to even see,

The things between us now,

Just haven't quite been the same,

Can we figure out, which one of us is to blame,

'Cause I can't go on.

And Oh,

Why are we pretending?

Why are we just wasting time, on a love that isn't real?

Because if you don't want me,

You should just tell me now,

So I can save these tears.

You, you said that you would never,

Ever hurt me but I guess that was a lie,

'Cause it's killing me to watch you stay