Blínded ► brightwin

one

Win was pregnant and a single parent. Being an asian on top of that gay and if that's not enough then getting pregnant as if god really gave all possibilities for people to disgust him, he was truly unaware where he was wrong, why was his sexuality even mattered ? his rare case of being able to get pregnant, mocked ? it wasn't his fault that he was attracted to boys, it was not his fault that he could carry a child inside his womb. It really was so difficult to live through all of this. Too much of people minding his own business.

Stroking the paint brush aggressively on the black painted canvas, the rough noises igniting due to the friction in the half empty room soothing his furious mind, he just moved into his new apartment, two days back, with lots of boxes still unopened and so many things still not on their respective places, a total mess. He was really tired of the shifting, plus his huge bump (not really) was not helping much, win was in his 5th month, full of mood swings and weird cravings for food at very unusual times and toptap was the one to go through all of that,with so much patience and a nod he'd be found shoving the wallet in one of his pocket and grabbbing the car keys with another hand and by the time he would be back with icecream and kimchi jjigae (don't even ask how win had the idea of eating them together) he would find either win sleeping or he'd just straight ass deny to eat it because he was too late, and toptap would just sigh and go back to what he was doing, much respect to the man.

Chuckling at how much toptap actually struggled because of him, and throwing back the guilt as soon as he felt it, to the back of his head, he concentrated on his painiting, perfecting the minor details again and again he was tired, he stopped, letting the wooden brush fall of from slim fingers into the small bowl of dirty water resulted from the different colours mixed in it together, toptap would always nag at him for leaving the water for days and not throwing it away, and he'd just not care about him and go on with his work.

click.

talk of the devil, he grinned.

the front door opened and was soon locked back, the very familiar footsteps made its way to the kitchen keeping all the groceries on the counter one by one. His older brother toptap, Toptap jirakit, a barista and cafe owner. Win really appreciates how his brother has always helped and supported in every little of the things, like when he wanted to drop out of college to pursue arts and even with his pregenancy.

"turn on the T.V. win, there's something weird happening."

"Weird ?" win asked, his tongue pocking out and eyebrows twitching in concentration. "Yes, it's such an hassel out there in the west part of asia." toptap said picking up the remote lying on top of few boxes. win didn't really mind the latter's blabbering, and continued with his painting.

Toptap switched on the small T.V. shuffling the channels, he finally picked one of the news channel, "Look at this."

Breaking news : 

Airports and train stations have been shut down. streets are crowded with people escaping cities by car and by foot, it is reported as unexplained mass suicides, first recorded in west side of asia, now there's alarming spread of incidents in the insides of western side. Estimated death rate is in tens and thousands. sources report people exhibiting psychotic behaviour. Authorities are advicing the people to remain calm.

it was live the reporter was on the set connected with the cameraman outside, it wasn't very clear what actually was happening, everything was either not stable or it was just getting blurred of the focus.

win couldn't really make out what was happening besides people running around crazily, it was really a mess, some of the people were lying on the ground lifelessly, no one was driving the car properly it was clear they were trying to suicide, some cars were squished badly, another one was on fire, he saw one of the teenager, badly injured, blood flowing out of his head came running towards one of the car, and getting hit, he flinched WHAT WAS EVEN HAPPENING, he was staring at the screen in horror, all of the sudden, the scene ended with a glitch.

"What is happening ?" was the only question clouding win's mind, "even I don't know, but never mind, we are safe here" toptap assured, win lightly nodded still facing the screen though he knew something was not right.

"Anyways get ready, its your appointment with the doctor today " toptap said switching off the T.V. "oh right the ultrasound right" toptap nodded "wait for five minutes, i'll be out" win said making his way to the restroom.

After locking up the front door, they made their way to the hospital, the way was silent, a light song playing in the background, win took the time to rest a little, closing his eyes, letting his body rest for a while, but his mind was in distress, the same scene replaying again and again. something was not right, something is going to happen soon.

And he was not wrong, it was the calm before the strom.

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Here first chapter published.

Tell me if I should change win being pregnant ?

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