Lover - on hold

Chapter 3

Taylor's pov

I just stared at her, I didn't know what to do.

"Taylor. Are you really okay?" She asked again.

I don't know what to say, she knows. She knows I'm cutting, she knows I'm not okay. What do I do?

"No." I finally said.

She stood up and I was scared she was going to leave me, but she didn't.

"Come here" She said with open arms.

I stood up and hugged her and started to cry. I started to cry about everything, about my life, the fact that she knows now, what if she tells someone?

"Please don't tell anyone, no one can know." I said.

"I won't, I promise. I want you to know something though. I promise things will get better, so many people in this world love you and I promise I'm always here for you. You can text or call me whenever you need to, I'll answer every time. I promise I'm here for you."

"Thank you, that means so much to me" I said with a shaky voice.

We hugged for a few more minutes till we went back to the table and sat down. We continued eating and I had a really hard time keeping everything down. I pushed my bowl across the table and started crying again.

"I can't do this!" I yelled while burying my head in my hands.

"Hey, it's okay, take it easy." Grace said, setting her hand on my shoulder.

I looked up at Grace with tears in my eyes. "Do you even want to do this? I'm such a mess and I can't do anything right and you're going to have to be with me all the time on tour. It's okay if you don't. I understand you probably don't want to since I'm like this."

All she did was hug me again. "Yes Taylor, I do want to do this. It's okay, you're human, human's have emotions. I'm still doing this and I'll be there for you every step of the way. I promise."

"Thank you Grace, I don't think you understand how much this means to me." I said.

We talked for a while and time passed by pretty quickly and it was already dinner time. I want to offer her to have dinner here but I feel like I've already annoyed her even though she says I haven't. Maybe I just ask her to have dinner we're going to be having dinner together everyday on tour anyways. I also need to talk to her about coming with me to a meeting with Tree tomorrow so she can meet Tree. We also have to talk about tour since we're starting to get ready for it starting in two weeks.

"Hey Grace? Do you maybe want to stay for dinner, I need to talk to you about some things." I asked.

"Um sure, are you sure you don't want time to be alone or something?" She asked.

"No trust me, you don't want to leave me alone." I said.

We both laughed and went back to the kitchen. After talking about what to have for dinner we both decided on chicken. When I finished cooking, we went back to the table and ate.

"So since we're going to be together for the next year I figured we would get to know each other. So ask me questions and I'll ask you questions." I said.

"Okay I want to start, so I'm starting." She laughed. "Okay I would ask what your favorite animal is, but we all know that. So, what's your favorite color?"

"Purple and white, what's yours?" I asked.

"Green, but not like bright green, like forestry greens and greens you see in a flower field." She said.