"I'm not worth enough for you to love" [❤DreamNotNap❤] DISCONTINUED

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(((i made that so long ago)))

(warnings: mention of wanting Suicide, toxic mindset, mention of anorexia, self harm, language, pet murder, mention of blood, bad parents, smoking alcohol, childhood trauma, throwing up (kinda) )

Sapnaps pov

I sit up and go to my computer and on to discord, i didn't wanna go all the way to my computer but i do it regardless, (((oh muffins i don't know how discord calls woOorrrkkk))) I went to bads icon and tapped call, it rang for a moment then i heard bads voice.

{_No Ones POV_}

((S: sapnap, B:Bad))

B:"Hello?"

S:"Hey bad!"

B:"Hey Sappy"

S:"heyy uhm.. So how is this g-going to work? L-like do I pick y-you up?? D-do y-you wanna drive here your self-? Or i-"

Sapnap was rambling he was clearly nervous,

B:"Nick calm down.. We can figure this out slowly ok?" bad said trying to calm him down

Sapnap breathed out

S:"o-o-oh ka-ay...."

B:" Now if you want to you can drive to the airport, or i can rent a-"

He was cut off

S:"Nononononono i can drive i don't want you to rent a car when i have one i can use its ok-" he said quickly

B:"ok ok, do you want to meet me at the bag pick up, or out by the parking lot? "

S:"uhm what do you wanna do-?"

B:"pfft- i'm asking you but ok, is it ok if we met at the parking space?, it would cause less attention" he pointed out

S:"oh yea- that is a good point"

He had forgotten he was a youtuber, and if any fan saw him they might question why he was gone for so long, and sapnap couldn't tell them one of their favorite streamers wants to commit ***not exist***, and has been starving himself, for however long, sapnap was lost in thought and bad was about to call him back to reality when rat did it for him, sapnap heard rat bark loudly twice

B:"Rat, I gave you food already!" there was another bark it's like rat was actually talking to bad

S:"heh"

_+~Snapmaps POV~+_

I started thinking, dad was bringing rat with him, she got shaved one time and after that she was like a rat for while i guess that's why she's called that heh, i think she's gotten long again (((that sounds like she stretched))) i hear bad say,

 "Well the hair in your eyes wouldn't be a problem if you let me cut it!" hehe- yeah its long again, she must be really soft right now, i like soft things i don't have a lot of them though, pets are fluffy though i remember wanting a pet, i was about 5...maybe 4 and I went up to my mom and asked if we could get a pet.

She looked at me annoyed, "Maybe..." she said i started to smile "But only if you do all your chores, come exactly when i call, don't mess around in school get good grades, don't misbehave at home, and don't make messes, then we MIGHT get you a pet" She looked away again and i frowned slightly, "aww....PlEeAasEe???"

 she looked at me again she was angry "If you don't stop askin' it's gonna be a no and.. I'll hit you," i got a little nervous i didn't like it when mother hit me.. "Ok momma..."