"I'm not worth enough for you to love" [❤DreamNotNap❤] DISCONTINUED

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(((an: wow waring in the first chapter woah, i tried to make this good so ehhh, also I hope i'm not offending anyone ;^;)))

⚠🔥warnings for this chapter: anorexia, crying, toxic thoughts, panic attacks I think that's all🔥⚠

Dream:21
George:20
Sapnap: 19
bad: 25

{sapnaps pov}

I woke up slowly and turned my head to my bedroom window. It was kinda dark, I reached my hand over to my nightstand and grabbed my phone. My phone's brightness was really high "ohh..g..od..." I groan my voice a little raspy why does it always be that way I turn down the brightness, 'I thought it was still night' I say to myself,

 its Friday 4:01 am, might as well get up, I sit up and look around my dark room and see my computer and decide to play Minecraft, I lift my blanket up and off of me and I swing my feet off the bed and stand up and i stumble a bit 'awe crep-'

 I stabilize my self and walk over to my desk and turn it on and get on Minecraft and decided to get on the dream Smp because why not, I got on and to no surprise no one was online, I was getting some exp at the spider Spawner when I saw in the chat Dream and George had joined, 'nice..' I thought to myself and I was getting out of the spider spawner and walking along the prime path and going to Erets castle I didn't know why I was I just...was, then I see the chat 

>dream<: hey snapmap i didn't see you were on

>georgenotfound<: where r u sap

I type

>sapnap<: im at erets castle, and hi you 2

>dream<: me and gogy are almost there can you join vc?

>sapnap<: yeah

I typed, feeling a light blush on my cheeks and i knew why..dream and gogy...my best friends...who i fell for.

>georgenotfound<: mk

At this point i could start to see the sun peeking through my bedroom windows, i go on discord and go in to the vc they were in i was smiling to myself,

((( S:sapnap, D:dream, G:george )))

S: "hey guys"

D: "hey sapnap"

G: "hello "

S: "So why did i need to join vc?"

D: "oh! Uhh, "

He paused, he seemed nervous about something, did i do somthing...?

G: "we need to tell you something sap" george said calmly maybe a little nervously

Dream started wheezing, which

made gogy scoff and made me giggle abit his laugh is so contagious, even if it did sound like a tea kettle, or a dying balloon most the time, it was a pretty laugh 

G: "why are you laughing? What's funny?"

Gogy questions, making dream laugh more, once he sort of stopped he said

D: "you just said it so seriously, like someone died or we didn't wanna be friends anymore,"

dream giggles abit

G:"oh come on dream"  i could basically hear his eye roll

When I heard him say that I got a little worried 'what would i do if they left me...?, if they didn't wanna be friends, I would be kicked off the Smp and the dream team... what would I do,' I think ' What if they died?!? What would I do, would I take a break, and cry? Most likely,... but still the thought of losing my friends'... then i remembered my thought of my feelings because I liked them both.. A lot....if they both...Just died...i would probably.....' a million thoughts swarmed my head until I hear