loving HER.

~ awkward ~ (1)

*valerie's point of view*

flashback ~

We were arguing on how he was spending his money on me, I didnt want him to think me as charity.

"I don't think of you as charity valerie. I thought you fucking knew that. We've been dating for how long now? 9 fucking months. and still you're overthinking stuff..." he ran his hand through his soft hair frustrated. I was a poor girl, though I never cared for money. And here matt was, spilling his money on me.

"I know, but I... you know i dont like it when you spoil me, i also wanna get stuff for you but i cant afford that, so it's just unfair to me..." i sighed giving him an explanation for the tenth time this month, he needed to stop getting me all these expensive things. "can i hold you?" he asked and I turned around facing him, he sighs and continues. "I'm pretty sure you're mad at me but I just wanna hold you"

I obviously didnt think twice as I walked into the arms of the boy who had my heart racing. his embrace warmed up my cold figure. "I'm sorry, I'll try not to get you the things you call 'expensive', but I cannot promise you anything val" hale tightened his grip on me and I smiled into his chest.

end of flashback ~

And here I was thinking about Matthew for the - I'm pretty sure - 7th time this whole week.

it's been 6 months since the break up valerie.

You.need.to.get.over.him. my subconscious
remarked.

I was in English not paying attention to what Mrs. Smith was blabbering about, it was quite weird because she was actually the one teacher I liked..

I left class and off to my locker i went, my phone vibrated in my pocket and i took it out.

Ashley: hi val, I'm in the cafeteria with Blake and Matt. I know you might be uncomfortable being with him but give it a tryyy.

Valerie: Ashley!! why? it would be so awkward even though we dont talk. why did you do that!

Ashley: oops, but he's talking to Blake about some basketball thing, so he wont even notice you.

Valerie: I'm so nervous,  I'm coming.

Me and ash have been friends since we were 12 year olds, we're turning 18 this year for heavens sake. but ashley has this thing where she does something that might bother me, and not ask me for consent about it.. just like the way
shes now making me and hale meet up. it's not that I would confront her about it, shes added so much good to my life.

Sighing I shut my locker and walked alone to the cafeteria.

The cafeteria was pretty crowded today, I wasnt sure why but I just continued until I saw the brunette, green-eyed, pretty girl I call my bestfriend waving at me. next to her was her boyfriend and my friend, blake. and across them was...Matthew, the boy I once thought would never leave me.

Ashley and Matt were like siblings, Matthew was the older brother she never had but he never really showed it, he loved her in a sibling-way, it was very unnoticeable but I can see it in his eyes.

Even their parents work together which can really explain why they're close although Matthew
would always look at her bluntly and would barely speak a word or two.

That's why I thought it was abit weird that she always spoke so well about him, but then I saw it in those beautiful eyes. he really cared for her.

Continuing , I slowly was taking small steps towards their table. Matthew's back was facing me, and I felt nervous as I was about to sit right next to him right now. Ash sat down once she knew I saw them, she had a smile on her face.

As I arrived Blake was on his laptop doing something, and once he saw me and he stood up with a smile on his face. "Val!! Look at this, me and Matt are going to Paris next week!! Y'know gang things" he had a smirk on his face while showing me a picture of flight tickets from his laptop, they're going to Paris? I thought.

Matt and blake were in this gang thing, I really never knew much about it since Matt didn't like talking about it so I let it be. But Blake was really open about this, with us though. He was fine with talking about the 'gang'.

Matthew was the leader or something like that, and Blake was like a technician, he knew all these technology things where he could hack people or tell the location of a certain person, that stuff. Throughout me and Matthew's relationship we never really spoke about his job stuff, we also never really opened up to each other so thinking about it now, I kind of understand why he might have wanted us no more.

Nonetheless, I smiled at Blake and awkwardly took a seat next to Matt.

Well, this is awkward!!

"Woah, that's pretty cool. Get me something from there." I replied in a happy tone while Matthew was just on his phone and didn't take in my appearance, Blake smiled at me and sat back down. I took a look outside and saw the snow falling, we were in the beginning of January, it was pretty cold right now.

"Hey valerie. How was English?" Ashley asked. "It was good, we have an assignment to do so I guess I'll be having stuff to do this evening." I rolled my eyes and Ashley giggled.

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First chapter yay! Yuck it's also pretty short I'm pretty excited for this as it took me a couple of hours to figure out how I should start the first part of this chapter since it was the first one but I figured it out so yay!

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