A constant that should only be a moment.
I always found it fascinating how some people had these fleeting few seconds where they experience a feeling or a situation. That they only experience it for a moment but for others it can be a constant. It can be something that surrounds them all the time.
I think my constant is that moment when your at a swimming pool and push yourself under water.
You can hear everyone above and even though their right beside you their a million miles away.
Their is a clear wall between you and the rest of the world. The water isn't only keeping them from you but you from them.
And it would be so easy to swim up to rejoin the people you care about. But the problem is I don't want to anymore. I found comfort in my sadness I enjoy being a million miles away from the rest of the world. I like the feeling of always knowing I could open my mouth at any moment and just let the water in. I let the water wash away my feeling and fill me with numbness. I enjoy the numbness since then I feel no pain.
At least that's what I like to tell myself
Most people spend a minute at the bottom of the pool but when I leave the feeling follows it drowns me and consumes me never letting me go.
It had become my constant
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Poetryjust some writing and thoughts. late at night so I can let it all out. sometimes I'm scared ill forget things and it will be as if they never were. it it be that ill forget a moment where I find myslef at complete ease. or a memory that I like to cl...
