Oneshots Natasha Romanoff & Scarlett Johansson

I'm scared! NR

Tw
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Again I lay in my bed. I'm so so tired but I just can't find sleep. Again it's 1 am, I read a book and try to get myself tired from all the reading but I just didn't fall asleep.
I made my way as quiet as possible down to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. After I put it down on the counter, I noticed I wasn't alone anymore. I slowly let my hand down to my pocket and that was the moment when the other person came up to me. I pull out my knife, spin around and hold it against the persons throat.
"Wow, it's just me." I recognize the voice, 'oh shit it was my mum' I thought to myself. She slowly puts her hand to mine and took the knife from me. She turns around and could see how shocked I was.
"You scared the shit out of me Mum." I whisper and turn back to my glass.
"I'm sorry little one." She says and I turn back to her. She studies my face so I quickly smile at her slightly.
"Y/N, hun, you sure you ok? You seem a little off lately."
"Sure I'm fine, momma. I'll go back to bed, good night." I smile at her but I know that she knows that something is up. I mean my Mum is 'The Black Widow'. Before she could say anything I was back in my room.
After another hour I finally fell asleep just to woke up again 3h later. Now it's 5 am so I decided to just get ready for the day. I put on my sport clothes and go down to the training room.
I wrap my hands, tape my feet and start to warm up. After it I put on my shoes, put my headphones on and start to dance one of the choreographys. Even though I absolutely hate the red room, dancing always gives me a bit of peace.

Natasha pov:

Even befor last night I knew something was wrong but now, I'm absolutely sure.
It's around 5 am when I heard movements and the door of the training room. Something in me told me to get up and take a look so I did.
After I changed in sport clothes and went to the training room, I found my daughter dancing with her headphones on. I know that it brings her peace, she could have a really shity day but after she danced she had her smile back and was calm again. It just show me that really something had to be up with her.
I decided to let her alone for the next 15 minutes and come back when she is done with dancing.

Y/N pov:

After I was done my Mum came in and joined me. Together we train combat for an hour. I was so exhausted at the time that she didn't even get me to do a cool down. I go back in my room and shower.

The whole day was weird, well not the others but my mum. Now it is around 10 pm when I hear a knock on my door.
"It's open." I shouted and heard the door open and close. I turn around and my mum was there, she look... well I can't describe... vulnerable?
I lift my cover for her and she lays next to me. "Wanna talk?" I ask her softly but she shook her head and put me in her arms. We didn't do that in ages but I really enjoy it. She always makes me feel safe and for the first time in months I fall asleep before midnight.

Natasha pov:

She fall asleep in my arms and I couldn't help myself but awe at the view. I don't know why but I had a pretty bad day. I know she noticed it the second she looked at me but now with her in my arms everything was better again.

I must have fallen asleep because when I wake up, I heard Y/N crying and she was shaking. I slightly shake so she wakes up again. My baby looks so horrified. I pull her back in my arms and hug her tightly. "Everything is fine, you are ok, nothing happened. It was just a dream, just a dream." I whisper into her ear.
"I-I'm sorry." She whispers after her breathing was steady again.
"Don't be. Wanna tell me what you dreamed?" I ask her softly.
She took a few deep breaths before she mumbled "red room."
I hug her even tighter.
"What time is it?" She asks shyly.
"Nearly 5 am, wanna get up?" She nod and we both stand up and change in sport clothes an met again in the training room.

*time skip

It was around midnight when I heard my daughter knocks on my door. "Mum?" "Mum are you still up?"
I quickly got up and open the door, her voice sounded so broken and when I look at her it was not just her voice.
Tears are streaming down her cheeks, she's trembling and her breathing is too fast.
I take her in my arms and lead her over to my bed. I gently press her head against my chest so she could focus on my heart beat.
When she calmed down we lay down together.
"Honey, talk to me. What's wrong?"
"I couldn't really sleep in the last few weeks. If I sleep, it's usually only around 3h and nearly every time I have nightmares. I'm so exhausted and tired but I just can't find more sleep but also a side of me don't wanna sleep because I'm so scared of that I could have a nightmare again. I was laying in my bed staring at the ceiling and that was when the panic hit me. I panicked that I could have a nightmare again and I couldn't dream about her again. I can't watch what they did to Ana again. That's what I was dreaming when you woke me up. I couldn't calm myself so I got up again to go to you. Mum, I miss her so much, I'm scared, tired and so exhausted."
I didn't know my daughter went through all this the last few weeks. I'm happy she finally opened up. I hug her tightly.
"I know you miss her, I miss her too but she would want us to move on. She will always be here with us and keep an eye on us. Believe me the nightmares will get better and you can always come to me so you don't have to sleep alone, ok honey? I love you so much." I whisper into her ear.
"I love you too momma."