I'M JANETTE COTO AND I'M 13 YEARS OLD I WILL BE 14 SOON, MY MOTHER IS ONE OF JEHOVAH WITNESSES AND THAT MEANS I HAVE TO BE IN THAT RELIGION AS WELL. WHEN I WAS LITTLE I WAS RAPED BY MY STEP BROTHER AND THREATENED TO KILL ME IF I TOLD ANYONE... I WISHED HE WOULD HAVE KILLED ME. MY FAMILY IS SUICIDAL AND MY TWO BROTHER HAVE BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL BECAUSE OF IT AND I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO HASN'T GONE TO THE HOSPITAL...MY DAD IS NOT RELIGIOUS... THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT I KNOW THAT CARE ABOUT ME IS MY TEAM AND ADOPTED FAMILY... SENSE I'M RAPH AT SCHOOL I HAVE A BEST FRIEND THAT IS LEO AND TWO OTHERS THAT IS DONNIE AND MIKEY. I TRY HARD TO BE FRIENDS WITH EVERYONE BUT I CAN'T GO ANYWHERE WITH MY SCHOOL FRIENDS BECAUSE OF MY MOM AND HER RELIGION... I NEVER REALLY GOT BULLIED BUT WHEN I DID THEY CALLED ME AND ANT AND I WILL BE TO SMALL TO DO ANYTHING AND THAT I WILL FIND SOMEONE TO LOVE ME... IN MY FAKE FAMILY I AM A MOTHER WITH A BROTHER AND A SISTER, I AM ALSO A GRANDMA DON'T JUDGE THAT'S HOW I AM... IN MY REAL FAMILY I HAVE A MOTHER THAT ALWAYS POINTS OUT MY FLAWS A SHE SAYS SHE LOVES ME BUT SHE DOESNT, ME AND MY BROTHERS WERE A MISTAKE, BUT SHE SAYS ALL OF THESE THINGS AND STILL SAYS SHE LOVES US AND I HATE THAT, I HAVE BROTHERS THAT DON'T UNDERSTAND ME... MOSTLY MY LITTLE BRO AND I TRY TO SEE THE GOOD SIDE OF MY LIFE AND WHEN I AM IN WATTPAD I FEEL LIKE I AM WANTED TO TYPE THINGS THAT POP OUT OF MY HEAD.... BUT ALL OF IT CHANGES AS I WAS CALLED A 'DISGRACE' FROM MY MOM AS I AM STILL TYPING I AM CRYING AND IF YOU ARE READING THIS THEN I MIGHT BE CRYING AGAIN... MY BIG BRO TURNED 16 AND ON HIS B DAY MY MOM TREATED HIM LIKE IT WAS A NORMAL BAD DAY. I USE MY ANGER TO HIDE MY TEARS AND SOMETIMES IT WORKS. THIS IS PART OF ME THAT I DON'T WAN'T ANYONE TO FEEL. YOUR LIFE MIGHT NOT BE A HAPPLY EVER AFTER LIKE IN THE STUPID PRINCESSES MOVIES BUT DON'T CUT YOUR SELF LIKE I HAVE DONE A FEW TIMES IN MY LIFE SO ANYWAYS THIS IS JUST RANDOM SO I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY OTHER THAT... HOPE YOUR LIFE IS BETTER THAN MINE.
