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SC #2

SC: #2 Ava's Confession to Cal

"Umamin na si Andrew kay Oli" sabi saakin ni Derek while we're at Giselle's condo for the post graduation-celebration. Graduation kasi namin kahapon at hindi kami nakapag celebrate sama sama kahapon dahil kasama ang pamilya. Kaso.. absent si Oli.. she has problems.

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay

"Oh" I said "Ano sasabihin ko? Thank you sa announcement?"

"Boang" sabi niya "Ikaw ba kailan ka aamin kay Cal?"

Natigilan ako pero nagpatuloy din "Wag na"

"Bakit?"

"Baka isipin niya gusto ko siya" sabi ko

Tumawa siya "E gusto mo naman talaga siya ah?"

"Hindi" sabi ko "Hindi ko siya gusto. Pero may gusto ako sa kaniya. Mag kaiba 'yon"

"Boang ka talaga" he said "Pero bahala ka. I don't know what's keeping you so long from confessing. Sige ka pag nagkaron yan ng iba mag sisi ka"

Ako din. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi pa ako nagc-confess d'on kay Cal. I mean.. hindi naman ganoon kalalim ang nararamdaman ko sa kaniya. Pero would it hurt if nag confess ako? Would I shoot my shot? Will I forever hide this feeings?

"Pano ba mag confess?" Tanong ko kay Derek. He smirked at me and gave a victorious smile. Great. Mukang mali pa ako nang napagtanungan.

I took a deep breathe. Gabi na. Naiwan kami ni Cal dito sa rooftop ng condo ni Giselle for some reasons. Ginawan ata ng paraan ni Derek na maiwan kaming dalwa dito. I was holding a beer and so does he.

"Asan sila Riri?" Tanong ni Cal.

"May kinukuha lang" tipid kong sagot.

"Oh.." natigilan siya pero ngumiti "Okay"

"Okay" sabi ko din. Nin-nerbyos talaga ako.

"Are you okay?" Tanong niya.

Kumunot noo ko "Bakit?"

"Weird lang. Hindi mo'ko pinipilosopo"

I smirked at him. But at the same time.. na realize ko din na hindi siya sanay na mabait ako. Maybe I should be nicer to him.

Nalalala ko ang advice na binigay ni Derek. Damn it. This is stupid.

"So.." sabi ko "What is college like?" tanong ko

"Are you really okay?" tanong niya saakin na nakangiti

Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay "Bakit ba?"

"Now that's Ava" sabi niya.

I rolled my eyes while smiling "Just answer the question"

"Oh.. yes. It's a lot of different than being in high school. Malaking adjustment ang gagawin mo para makapasa. Pero kakayanin mo yun. Ikaw pa. What are your plans for the future ba?"

I sighed. This is stupid talaga Derek.

"Maging future mo" bulong ko. Putangina mo talaga Derek napaka corny ng mga galawan mo.

Ramdam ko ang pag lingon ni Cal. He snorted at me and smiled "What?"

I took a deep breathe. This isn't working. I'll do this my way.

"Look" sabi ko "Wag kang assuming dyan pero... ano... ano"

"Ano yun, Ava?" tanong niya. He looked at my eyes.

"Gusto kita" sabi ko "Correction— mali pala. May gusto ako sayo. Pero di kita gusto"

"Huh?"

"I have feelings for you, Cal. Okay na?"

Natahimik kami. My heart raced faster. Bakit.. ang tahimik niya? The slience went longer. He was just staring at the city lights so I did too. I took a deep breathe and hold tight into my beer.

"Sorry... Ava" he said "Look.. I know we're friends. And I don't want things to be awakward between us. I'm sorry.. I should have noticed sooner—"

"Get to the point, Cal" sabi ko

"I like someone else, Ava. Sorry"

Tumayo ako. This is so.. embarrassing. Rinig kong tinawag niya ako. But there's something heavy I felt on my chest. Weird. Hindi ko pa naramdaman ito kahit kanino. I had a few boyfriends before but I felt nothing. This.. is also my first rejection. Bakit mabigat sa dibdib?

I guess the feelings' a lot stronger than i thought.