Matthew Espinosa Imagines

Heartbreaker Pt. 2

" I still love I still love, I still lo-o-ove."
The music that's playing on the radio isn't helping much. Instead of turning the radio down, I unplug it. All I wanted at the moment was silence. Just me, myself and I. Once I'm comfortable, I take out my phone and scroll through tumblr. I see photos varying from relationship photos, to funny edits. As I'm scrolling through my newsfeed, my house phone rings. I let out a small whimper and manage to get myself off the bed. I press the green button.
"Hello?" I say
"(Y/N), it's Matt. Can I come over.?" He says quietly. I sit in silence for a couple seconds.

Honestly, should he? I mean, I would love some answers from him.

"Hello?" He speaks up. I pull a strand of hair behind my ear.

"Uh, yeah. You can. Just come inside whenever you're here." I reply. There was a small pause until he speaks up.

"Okay thanks. See you in a few." And with that I hang up. Honestly, I'm not sure if I should ask about what happened. I'm scared that it'll turn into a fight. Some of our fights were so violent, he's hit me once. After that, he treated me like a was a porcelain doll. I really did love him. He meant so much to me and honestly, I thought we were forever. But I was wrong, obviously. He was also my first everything, my first love.. My first time.. Even my first kiss. I couldn't handle myself knowing that's what I gave to him.

My thoughts were disrupted by a door closing. As I hear footsteps up the stairs, my heart starts beating faster and faster. Honestly, it felt as if my heart skipped a beat. When I see his face in the doorway, I look down at my white blanket. I start playing with the blanket, curling it around my fingers. I feel the bed shift and a weight on the other side of it.

"Uh hey." Matthew breaks the silence. I don't reply, I just keep my eyes to my blanket. I could feel how swollen my eyes were from crying. My face felt warm and you could see the tear stains on my face as well, I could feel the energy around us.
"Why?" I ask. I look up to Matthew with a confused look. I really wanted to know what all of a sudden happened.
"I met someone." Is all he says. I whimper and cry even more.
"Matthew, I loved you so much. I still do. And it sucks because you were all I had left. Now I have no one. I'm literally alone. I have no friends, no family." I cry. I wipe my eyes with my hands, spreading my makeup even more, I didn't care. He slides his hand to mine and holds it but I pull mine away. But it doesn't matter, I won't have him back again. I bet she's pretty and way better then I am. I mean, if he's willing to throw away our long relationship for her, she's definitely way better then me.
"I'm sorry (Y/N)." He says. I shake my head, and squeeze his hand.
"No, don't be. It's not your fault. You can't stop your feelings." I reply, i grab his hand, quickly then letting loose of his hand. I look at him for the first time since he arrived, and grieve and pain was all I could see in his expression, but I didn't understand why. He leans in, me hesitating at first but as do I. We kiss. I could feel the passion and regret in it. He pushes me down so I'm laying and he hovers over me. I feel his hot breath hit my neck, instantly sending chills throughout my body. I wrap my arms around his back and push him to my body. I missed him, even though we'd been apart for such a short time. It feels as if it's been weeks, even years. I cherish every moment that had happened just now. He doesn't bother to get up, he rolls around so I'm on top of him and he places his hands on my thighs.
"I love you." He says. I smile and lean down to kiss him, but he moves away. My face turns sad, and my cheeks flourish a bright red because I was embarrassed.
"Not yet (Y/N). I need to do something first." He grins. I give him a confused look.
"(Y/N), I messed up big time. I realized how much you've been there for me and how much you love me. I was being stupid and I wasn't thinking. That girl, yeah she is a whore. Slut. I don't want her, I don't know why I got with her, but I do know that I want you because in the end, I know I'll be coming home to you everyday." He leans onto one knee and takes my hand.
"(Your full name), will you be mine." I nod my head and hug him. "I-love-you." I say in between kisses. God how I love him.
"There is a song I want to sing to you." I smile at him.