Thunderstorms ||minchan ff

Hyunjin

Chans POV
I woke up to a loud bang. My father came home and obviously can't close a door properly. I turned my head and looked at my clock 23:58, I must have fallen asleep.
I slowly stood up and made my way to the door. I opened it and looked down the stairs to see my dad sitting in the kitchen with a beer bottle in his hand. I sighed and closed the door. I walked into my bathroom, luckily I had one for myself and closed the door.
I undressed myself and looked in the mirror.
Fat.
Was all I could see. I looked at my thighs and started to cry a little bit.
I'm so disgusting.
I should eat less.
I have to loose more weight.
With these thoughts spinning in my head I grabbed my scale and stepped on it.
114 Pounds.(52kg)
I stepped down the scale, and went into the shower. I turned the water on.
Cold.
I was standing there as tears made their way down my cheeks...

After what felt like hours I turned the water down and got out of the shower. I was shivering so much that I had trouble to get myself a towel. I finished in the bathroom and went in my room. I packed my back for school tomorrow and laid down in my bed.
I tried to sleep but my stomach didn't stop to rumble...
So after two hours that felt like ten, I finally stood up and walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. I didn't want to eat but I hadn't for more than two days now so I decided I should eat something so I wouldn't collapse. I grabbed an apple and a protein bar and wanted to go upstairs again as I heard my dad.
„Hey! You little piece of shit you are too loud you're interrupting my sleep."
He went out of his room and saw me standing there with the food. „You really want to eat this?! You are way too chubby." he said with an evil smile on his face as he turned around and went back into his room. I stood there completely overwhelmed. I slowly went upstairs again and set down on my bed.
Is he right? Sure he must be right I'm so fat...
I slowly opened the bar with shaky hands and took a really small bite. I chewed so slowly and long. The food was like liquid as I finally swallowed it. I could already feel the calories turning into fat on my body. I felt nausea hit me and I threw the rest of the bar away.
There is no way I'm gonna eat this now!
I decided to try to eat the apple tomorrow morning cause we had P.E. tomorrow and I didn't want to risk passing out.
I laid back in my bed and stared at the ceiling, slowly drifting into a restless sleep...

Next morning
I woke up to my alarm clock with a headache.
What a great day to start the day.
I stood up, slowly, and made my way to the closet. I grabbed a blue ripped skinny jeans and an oversized grey hoodie with a grey beanie.
I grabbed my bag and walked down the stairs, the apple in my hand. My dad laid in  the living room. I took my black Vans and went out the door, closing it carefully to not wake my dad up.
I arrived at school only eaten half of the apple. I just couldn't finish it.
„Hey Channie." The sunshine itself greeted me. „Hey Felix." I said and went with him to our lockers where we met Hyunjin and Jeongin. We all had art now together and went to the room before the bell rang.

Timeskip to lunchbreak:

„Chan? Aren't you gonna eat something?" Hyunjin said loud enough for everyone out of our friendgroup to hear him.
„Yeah sure." I said forcing a fake smile on my face. I stood up and got myself a small portion of some noodles with tomato sauce.
450 calories.
I panicked, but since Hyunjin and Minho, who sat next to me, stared at me I slowly picked some noodles with my spoon up and shove it into my mouth.
It went good for five minutes and half the portion when I couldn't take it anymore.
I stood up and excused myself to the bathroom. Without realizing Hyunjins concerned look, I rushed there. I got into a cabin, fell down on my knees and shoved two of my fingers down my throat...
I nearly immediately felt the food go up my throat and I puked. Again and again until nothing came out anymore. By that time my throat was hurting and I cried.
Then I heard a soft
„Chan?"
I looked up and saw Hyunjin standing there, crying.
Oh fuck! I'm such a bad friend I messed up, completely. Now Hyunjin is crying...
„Hyunjin I'm so sorry I didn't want you to see that..." I said still crying.
But he just flushed the toilet and sat down beside me. After around 2 minutes he started talking
H:„Chan you need help!"
C:„No I'm fine."
H:„No you're definitely not fine you haven't   eaten for days, you are so skinny, and you just threw up, you made yourself throw up and you lie."
With that he stood up helped me stand up too and brought me back to the cafeteria.
Minho looked at me
„Chan are you ok? Have you cried?"
„No, everything's fine I just had something in my eye." I lied, again.
Hyunjin kept quiet. He had promised me to not tell our friends but didn't want to tell his plan...
Soon the bell rang and we all walked to our next class. I now had P.E. with Minho and Hyunjin. Actually the teacher was my favorite one. He always was really kind but also had high expectations, so not everyone was a fan of him. But I think he always keeps an eye on me since Felix told him a little bit about my family issues by mistake.
We went into the changing room but I changed on the toilet since I didn't want anybody to see how fat I was. Minho Hyunjin and I went into the hall and waited for the class to begin. I was a little bit nervous...

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Hey to anybody who reads this story. I hope you like it :)
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