Thunderstorms ||minchan ff

Late night incident

Chan POV
4:37am
Wow thats pretty late
I laid in my bed for like six hours or so and I couldn't fall asleep. The thoughts in my head never went quiet and the urge to hurt someone, hurt me, grew with every second. Without even realizing I had started to scratch at the back of my hand.
I'm so fat
Why am I like this
Nobody loves me
I'm unwanted
He hates me
It hurts...
It started bleeding. Really bad so I quickly stood up, took a bandage and wrapped it around my now hurting hand. I went back to my bed, laid down and started crying. The tears were streaming down my face and I wasn't able to stop them. My lungs became tight and I panicked. I couldn't get any air in my lungs.
I need help
Or I'm going to die
I can't breath
I grabbed my phone and called the first number I saw, without knowing who it was.
...
„Ehm, hello? I'ts really late and I was sleeping so wh-"
A loud sob got out of me and I tried to say something, but I couldn't, I didn't had enough air...
„Chan? Is that you? Are you ok? I'm coming, just breath ok?"
I knew the voice, Minho. I listened to his calm voice but still couldn't breath.
„Ok Chan. Listen to me. I got your address from Seungmin and I'm coming now. Just try to breath ok I'll be there in five ok?"
I can't breath
I can't breath
I can't breath
I can't breath
I can't breath
I can't breath
„Chan! You have to calm down just listen to me ok? You'll be fine..."

Minho POV
As soon as I realized Chan needed help, I grabbed my shoes, walked out the door and took my bike. Luckily Seungmin once showed me were everyone lived. While I was driving, I continued talking on the phone to Chan. I was worried sick, I knew he had a panic attack and that there was obviously no one there for him. What about his parents?
I arrived at his house and ran to the door I tried to open it and for some strange reason it opened.
„Chan, I'm here. Could you please show me were your room is ?" I said to the phone. I heard a knock from a room on the next floor. I rushed up the stairs and checked every room. I saw an empty bedroom filled with bottles and cans, a bathroom and finally the last door. I entered the room and saw a fragile silhouette crawled up in a bed. He was shaking really bad and tears were streaming down his face. I sat down in front of him and looked at him to check in what state he was. He definitely had a panic attack and couldn't breath. Han used to have some after my parents died and I helped him through it. I took Chan's hands in mine and drew circles on them. On his left hand was a bandage, what happened? Hopefully not the worst...
He had so much pain and fear in his eyes...
In this moment I decided I would help him, whatever he was going through.
„Chan, look and me. We're going to breath together now. In... and out... and again. In... and out..." I continued like that and finally he took a shaking breath...
After around 10 minutes he was breathing normally again.
I embraced him into a hug and he snuggled into my chest. I could feel his still shaking body on mine and laid both of us down, his head on my chest. While I was caressing his hair, I finally spoke up
„Chan, what happened? Do you often have panic attacks?". After some time he answered with his voice quietly.
„I-I tried t-to sl-sleep, but m-my thoughts we-were too l-loud..."he stuttered
„And I-I had s-some i-in the p-past but I was al-always able to c-calm my-myself down." he snuggled deeper into my chest, his hands gripping onto my shirt.
„How about I stay here the night?" I asked, not wanting him to be alone in this state.
„That would be really great Minho, thank you." he said shy.
„Then sleep now Channie, good night." and with that we both driftet into sleep...

Beep, beep, beep...
I sat up in the bed I was in, everything seemed so unfamiliar. I looked to my side to see Chan laying there, waking up. Suddenly the memories from last night came back and now everything made sense.
„Hey Channie you gotta wake up, we have school." I said with my deep morning voice. Chan shook up and looked at me confused, but then he seemed to remember
„Thanks again for coming Minho, I'm so sorry I had woken you up, but I really didn't knew what to do..."
„It's fine Chan. You can always call me, I'm here." I told him. After the short conversation we stood up and I got home quickly to change and grab my stuff. Chan told me he would go to school now. I was confused why he went so early but just ignored it. When I arrived home my Grandma wasn't awake,luckily. So I took a shower and had a small breakfast with Han. While we were eating I told him about what had happened last night, but didn't told him all the details to not disturb Chan's private life. We finished and started walking to school. When we arrived the whole friend group was waiting for us in front of the building. We split into small groups, how we had our first class: Jeongin and Han had englisch,Hyunjin and Seungmin had art now and Chan, Changbin,Felix and me had maths.
I actually like maths, it is one of my favorite subjects so I was in a good mood. My eyes hit Chan for a moment and I was shocked, he looked terrible. He had dark bags under his eyes and he was so skinny. This was the first time I really saw him, his condition was really bad and I wanted to help him so bad but...
How?

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