Dancing Your Way To My Heart

Chapter 9: 4th of July -"The Land of the Free and The Brave"...Except for me

Colin's POV:

July 4th, 2015

I decided to spend the Fourth of July weekend at my Parents house since it fell on a Saturday.

Life for me has been HARD and PAINFUL these Past few weeks. I've started Training for the Up coming Season which starts next month and so far things are falling into Place with the New Players. Even the New Coach is coming along fine. I just have to get used to his Style of Coaching.

I've been TRYING to keep myself busy and spend as much time with my family before the Season starts Full Force. They are the ONLY ones that keep me Grounded and Sane in every situation wether Good or Bad! Trust and Believe I NEED their Love and Support NOW more than ever!

"Colin! Can you PLEASE help me take this Outside?!" I heard my mom yell from the kitchen.

"Sure Ma!" I yelled back from the Living Room. "What do you need help with?" I asked her. Handing me a Bowl of Macaroni Salad, A bottle of Dressing and a serving spoon she says, "Can you Please take all of this and set it on the table outside where the rest of the salads are?! Please and Thank You!" she added Not looking at me.

"Sure Ma!" I said and turned on my heels to do as she asked. She didn't Look at me, As a matter of fact, she HASN'T really LOOKED at me since...

"Hey Colin, can you Please put what you have in your hands down and help me with these tables?" my dad asked as I stepped out to the patio. "Sure dad, give me a Sec."

I put the items down and went to help my dad. "Thanks Colin! Glad you are here to help." he said

"No Problem Pops!" I replied, "...at least SOMEONE'S glad to have me around!"

He looked at me questionably, "What do you mean?"

I let out a Big sigh and responded, "I DON'T think mom wants me here today or any other day per say!"

He glanced at me for a second and then patted me on my back taking a deep breath before responding, "That's NOT TRUE son! She wants you here and MISSES YOU when you are not! Your mom is Just..."

I ended up cutting him off, "...DISAPPOINTED in me?" I added.

"That's NOT what I said..." he continued.

"...You didn't have too! I know she is, she's Not subtle about it either..."

My dad looked down while shaking his head "She's just a little Upset, that's All. You know how she is. Give it some time..."

"Dad, she WON'T even look at me and when she does..." I looked down shaking my head as I went to sit down on a chair, "...I KNOW some of my 'Actions' in the past have Disappointed the both of you and you've Stood by and Supported me throught it All! But this time I know for a fact that it's going to take her a LONG time to Forgive me! As a matter of fact I SERIOUSLY DON'T blame her! How CAN I expect her to Forgive me when I CAN'T FORGIVE MYSELF!! I exclaimed.

Squeezing my left shoulder he sat down next to me. "Colin, I know it seems like she Won't and like I said, in time she will let ALL this go. Mom might be Upset with your 'Actions' but that doesn't mean she's STOPPED loving you! You are her son and Mine, We love you UNCONDITIONALLY! Were we 'SURPRISED' when we found out 'What you did'?! Yes we were and eventually we got over it. Now, your 'Actions' after the Fact..." he took another deep breath before continuing, "...I know you are 28 yrs old and a "Grown Man" but son, in some point in time you NEED TO GROW THE HELL UP! I SERIOUSLY DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL YOU WERE THINKING! I mean "I KNOW WHAT", but in your case something should have told you NOT TOO! We Raised you better than that and look at you NOW! You are paying the consequences of your 'ACTIONS'. We know you "REGRET" what you did but the Real Question is, Do YOU Understand WHAT YOU DID?!"