"April, why do you keep messing with my emotions?! Why can't you just tell me if you like me or not?! I need to know so I can get over you!"
April looked down at her hands and began to fiddle with them. "I-I want to Donnie I really want to tell you how I truly feel b-but I just c-can't."
"Why can't you April?! I'm not trying to force you to like me! You can tell me how you feel April! I'll understand I promise."
April didn't say anything instead she looks up at me and I can see tears in her eyes. "I-I'm sorry Donnie but I just can't." She says looking back down at her hands avoiding all eye contact with me.
"Fine...I guess I'll be going then goodbye April." I said walking away I needed to let her go and I was going to do so even if it meant my heart would be broken in the process.
"Donnie! Please! Don't go! I can't loose you! Not again! Please come back!" April yelled but I ignored her pleas I was done with all of this. I was finally giving up on her. I finally realized I never had a chance with April. I was never meant to be hers.
That thought alone brings tears to my eyes as the realization comes down upon me all those times I thought April was giving me a chance I realized that she was only playing with my emotions. I knew she didn't like me and I knew I should've stopped but I thought that I could've made her like me but all I did was cause heartbreak upon myself.
I should've seen it so much sooner but I was blinded by love and now all I feel is hatred. I don't hate April I hate the idea of how she messed with my feelings all along she knew that I loved her and cared deeply for her. She saw that and decided to mess with me. It may not have been her intention but she still hurt me.
And now I'm letting her go I needed to give up on her and move on I couldn't keep getting heart broken every time she rejected me.
I really didn't want things to go this way I wanted her to admit that she liked me but she didn't and now things between her and I will never be the same again things will always be awkward between us.
No I can't let her go! No matter how much I hate what she's done I just can't hate her I love her more than I could ever hate her.
So I began running back in April's direction she was still standing at the same spot I could tell that she was crying. I gently placed a hand on her shoulder causing her to look up at me with a small smile on her face.
"Donnie? I thought you would never come back." April said hugging me tightly her arms wrapped around my neck.
"April, I wanted to I just couldn't leave you. I didn't want to loose you again."
I said wrapping my arms around her waist and pulling her closer to me. I know I should've walked away but my love for April will always be stronger than my hatred for her.
I wanted to give up on her but my love for her made me realize that I couldn't no matter how much I had wanted to leave her.
