You've been keeping basically half of your life story a secret from everyone. Not that you really had anyone to tell but y' know. And you were really wanting to keep those secrets away from the cast. But obviously, that didn't happen. And they found out about your eating disorder. The doctor diagnosed you with anorexia when you were 18. And gave you medicine for it but you stopped taking it when you were 19. Even though your still supposed to be taking it. It just makes you feel like shit. You have a bunch of other medicines your supposed to be taking (but you don't) because of a bunch of other things you have been diagnosed with. But we'll get to those things later. The one that matters right now is your eating disorder. Because that's the one that is the cause of the fact that the whole cast is on Madelyn's bathroom floor hugging you because they just found out you only weigh 97 pounds. After a couple minutes of hugging you all stand up and go out to the living room. But before you can sit you notice the whole cast looking at you.
Ellianna: What?
Madison: Did you just ask us what? Really!? You know what!? What the hell is going on!?
Ellianna: Madison-
Madelyn: Ellie why do you only weigh 97 pounds!? Do you know how unhealthy that is!?
Ellianna: Of course I fucking know! I know that its unhealthy!
Madison: Then why!?
Chase: Guys-
Ellianna: I DONT KNOW WHY!
Madelyn: HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW!?
Ellianna: ITS BEEN LIKE THIS SINCE I WAS FUCKING 16! SO I GUESS ITS JUST NORMAL FOR ME!
Rudy: W-what? This has been going on since you were 16?
Ellianna: Yeah! (Says with a sad chuckle through her tears) I developed an eating disorder when I was 16. And it just gets worse from there so...
Jonathon: Why?
Ellianna: I don't know. It just happened I guess.
Rudy: Ellie-
Ellianna: Its fine!
Chase: Do your parents know?
You stay quiet for a minute trying to figure out how to answer that.
Rudy: Ellie?
Ellianna: Uh, yeah. Yeah they know. They try to help as much as they can but uh, there pretty busy so. And I moved away for this role. So there's not much they can do.
Madison: Ellie please eat. Please.
Ellianna: I cant! Its not that easy! I can't just have an eating disorder for almost 5 years and then randomly decide to eat an actual meal!
Jonathon: When was the last time you ate?
Ellianna: (mumbles something quietly)
Madelyn: What?
Ellianna: A month ago.
Rudy: Ellianna!
Ellianna: What!
Rudy: That is not good for you! This can kill you!
Ellianna: So what!
Rudy: What? (He says while getting more tears in his eyes)
Ellianna: Why do you guys even care! You just met me!
Madison: Because your a part of the obx cast! We all might have just met each other but look how close we already are! We care about you Ellie!
You start to cry again and Rudy hugs you basically holding you up in his arms because your having trouble standing because of how weak you are.
Rudy: Ellie. You can barely stand. Please just eat something!
Ellianna: I have a protein bar in my bag.
Jonathon goes and gets it for you. Rudy gently sets you down on the love seat and then sits next you with his arm around your waist still holding you up and you have your head on his shoulder. Jonathon hands you your protein bar and you take it but only stare at it.
Madelyn: We're gonna leave you two alone. It'll probably be easier for you to eat infront of only one person.
Ellianna: Thanks guys.
Madison: Of course. We all care about you Ellie. I promise.
Madison, Chase, Madelyn, and Jonathon go into one of the bedrooms leaving you and Rudy in the living room.
You continue staring at the protein bar with your head on Rudy's shoulder, as he hold you up.
Rudy: Take all the time you need ok? Don't rush.
Ellianna: I don't think I can do it.
Rudy: Hey, look at me.
You look into Rudy's eyes as he talks to you.
Rudy: I believe in you. And I know that you can do this. Because you are so strong and brave. You got this. And we have all the time in the world. There's no rush.
Ellianna: Thank you Rudy.
Rudy smiles and you go back to staring at the protein bar. Then you feel Rudy kiss your forehead and whisper,
Rudy: You can do this. I know you can.
You slowly unwrap the protein and stare at the food, but quickly look away from it with tears in your eyes.
Rudy: Hey hey hey! Its ok. Its ok. Its gonna take some time. But each day it will get better. I promise. (He says as he hugs you tightly)
Ellianna: No it wont! It never gets better! It only get worse! (You say as you cry into his shoulder)
Rudy: Hey talk to me. What's going on? What's wrong? (He says while slowly pulling out of the hug)
Ellianna: So many things. Their are so many things going on! (You say as you start to cry even more)
Rudy: Do you wanna talk about it?(he says trying to calm you down by moving some hair out of your face and kissing your forehead)
Ellianna: No. Not right now.
Rudy: Its ok. Here.
He grabs the sweatshirt that he gave you earlier and carefully puts it on you
Ellianna: Thank you. (You say slightly calming down)
Rudy: No problem.
That's it for this episode! I will try to post another one today but if I don't then I will post another one tomorrow! Make sure you check out my other stories! Thank you for reading bye!💗
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FanfictionWhen Ellianna Barbour books an acting job for the first season of outer banks she very quickly clicks with all of her cast mates and one in particularly is a special kind of click. But she has a very dark past that no one knows about. Will her cast...
