Im Sorry

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Rudy looks at you and your cuts for a second before quickly picking you up bridal style and carrying you into the bathroom. He sits you on the counter and looks through the drawers and counter looking for peroxide.

Ellianna: Rudy...

He ignores you and keeps looking for peroxide

Ellianna: Rudy please...

Again, he ignores

Ellianna: Rudy answer!

Rudy: Why did you do it! Why would you do this to yourself!?

Ellianna: I don't know. But Im sorry.

Rudy: What do you mean you don't know!?

Ellianna: Im sorry. I guess...seeing my dad brought back memories. Bad ones. And I just couldn't handle it!

Rudy: What did he do to you?

You see tears in his eyes and it makes your heart break. So you decide to tell him everything. About your mom, your dad, and your past.

Ellianna: When I tell you...promise you wont think of me differently.

Rudy: Baby. Nothing you say, or do will ever make me think of you any different.

Rudy gently kisses you on the lips and you kiss back. After a few seconds you both pull away as Rudy grabs the peroxide. As Rudy cleans your cuts, you tell him about your past.

Ellianna: My parents have both always been alcoholics and drug addicts. And when I was born they still were. They still are. My parents would fight a lot. Even over the littlest things. It went on like that up until I was 8. When they got divorced. I ended up getting stuck with my dad. He would beat me basically everyday. The only days he didn't are when he blacked out. And then, when I was 12, people started paying him to rape me. It hurt so bad and, I wasn't strong enough to stop them. The abuse only got worse every year. One time when I was 14 he cut me with a knife. That's where I got this scar on my cheek from. When I was 15 he sold me to this guy for a month. He did whatever the hell he wanted to me. And then...when I was 16... He beat me up so bad I thought I was gonna die. Obviously, he did that many times before but...the difference with this one was he stabbed me in the stomach.

At this point Rudy was done cleaning your cuts and is just listening to you talk with tears in his eyes.
You lift up your shirt and point to where the scar from the stab wound is. He looks at it and then back at you with a tear falling from his face.

Ellianna: After he stabbed me I was eventually able to get up and clean it and then put stitches in it. Then when I got back to my room, he came in.

Tears start to fall from eyes and Rudy kisses your forehead and holds your hand.

Ellianna: He raped me. After that I just couldnt deal with him anymore. I ran out of the house and to the police station. Eventually he was proven guilty. I was then sent to live with my mom. She was verbally abusive. And yes her words really hurt but she was usually hooking up with some random guy so it was defiantly an upgrade. Anyways, I developed deppression when I was 9, an eating disorder at 16, ive had anxiety for as long as I can remember, I also have ADHD and PTSD.
They all seem to only get worse as time goes by. Im supposed to take medicine for them but it makes me feel like shit.
Also my nightmares are kind of like flashbacks from when I lived with my dad. And I was bullied in school from 5th grade all the way up until high school. Anyways, I think that its.

Rudy just stares at you for a second with tears running down his face, as tears stream down yours. He pulls you into a tight hug and you immediately hug him back. You both hug for about 5 minutes before pulling away. He gives you a gentle kiss on your lips before talking.

Rudy: I am so sorry you went through all of that.

Ellianna: Its ok. Im here now. With you.

Rudy picks you up again and you wrap your legs around his waist as he carries you out of the bathroom. He walks into your room and sets you on the bed and gets in with you. You cuddle up to him and he hold you in his arms. He kisses your forhead before you both fall quickly fall asleep, holding each other the entire night.

Aggggghhhhh! I posted 3 times today! Yay! Anyways, thank you so much for reading and I will try and post tomorrow! Thank you so much for reading! Bye!💗

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Aggggghhhhh! I posted 3 times today! Yay! Anyways, thank you so much for reading and I will try and post tomorrow! Thank you so much for reading! Bye!💗

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