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"Hey, are you still coming over tonight?"

"Yes, but I might have a guest with me when I come over."

"A guest? What do you mean?"

I heard a knock on my door. I opened it for Mia, and noticed Jasmine standing next to her. "Surprise."

I felt my heart stop beating for a minute, frozen in the doorway. "Oh." I moved out of the way so they could come in. My gaze flashed between Mia and Jasmine.

"What?"

"I'm sorry, it's just that today is March 1st, and you guys are still together."

"Of course, why wouldn't we be?"

"No reason."

A few hours later, Jasmine left. "So... you and Jasmine still?"

"Yeah, I think you were wrong. The mistake isn't us being together, it's us breaking up."

"No, I'm not wrong."

"How do you know?"

"Because we tried being a couple a few different times, it never worked out for us. Besides, haven't you ever felt like she's hiding something, or she isn't happy?"

"No, never. I love her and I'm pretty sure she loves me too."

"She doesn't, she never will, she's not meant to be here to lift you up, Mia, she's going to hurt you, and you're just letting it happen by being with her."

"Maybe she hurt you, but she won't hurt me."

"It was you that she hurt. Every part of me that was Mia is still aching because of her. She never hurt me, it was always you."

"Then why are you still so hurt by her?"

"Because you will always be a part of me."

"Why do I feel like you're not telling me something?"

"I don't know."

"Seriously, what did she do that was so bad?"

"Date her, go ahead."

"I'm not going to ask for your permission to date her."

"Good."

"But, I'm curious."

"About why I'm so distant with her, why seeing her makes me mad?"

"A little, yeah. And don't tell me you can't tell me."

"Okay. She was, is, the love of my life, and she gave up on us, she never tried to fight for us. She just left, every chance she could, she never gave me a chance to show her how much I loved her."

"Maybe you were just too slow to show her."

"I didn't know how, she was the first person I was with, and I was afraid to kiss her or anything, I didn't want to ruin anything by kissing her whenever I wanted to, or showing her how much I loved her. If I had a second chance now, I would still choose her, and that's what hurts the most, knowing she's there, and single, and not being able to tell her how amazing she is, and telling her everything will be okay, and that she is the most wonderful person I ever met. I feel like I ruined the only chance I had with her."

"Have faith."

"I killed myself, there's no faith that will bring me back, or undo what I've done in the past."

"There's always a second chance."

"Not for us."