dream on, my dear.

"i promise."

-Aspen's POV-

"I promise."

No one has ever shown this much care about me. I was shocked. I told myself not to cry, but I couldn't help it.

She grabbed my hand and looked into my eyes. It felt like she was staring into my soul at times.

"I know I seem crazy, and I know we don't know each other that well, but I care about you, Aspen. I refuse to let you do this to yourself."

I squeezed her hand even tighter and nodded. Another tear fell down my cheek.

"I'm going to go now. Goodbye, Aspen."

"Bye." I whispered.

She started walking, our hands slowly pulling apart. Neither of us wanted to let go. Finally, I freed her hand and she walked out, giving me a slight smile as she left.

This was going to be harder than I thought.

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I woke up, and just stared at my ceiling. I sighed. I didn't want to get up.

My mother peeked her head into my room.

"Aspen, get up."

Fuck off.

"Alright."

I got up, and continued to stare at the wall.

Why was getting up so hard?

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I forgot I had to meet that guy in the bathroom.

I promised Amber.

Maybe just one more time? Then I'm done.

I walked into the bathroom, and didn't see him. I went into a stall and put my back against the wall. I sighed and put my head in my hands.

What am I doing?

"Hey. You in here?"

I rolled my eyes, and then walked out of the stall.

"Thanks."

I grabbed the drugs out of his hands. I looked at it, and then back at him.

"Give me your number."

"What?" He stared at me, confused.

"Just give it to me."

He rolled his eyes, and then asked for my phone.

"Thanks. See you."

I ran out. As soon as I left the bathroom, I started to shove the drugs into my wallet. I saw Amber out of the corner of my eye.

Shit.

She walked up to me, and smiled.

"Hey!"

Shit. Please, God. I'll start praying again, or whatever.

I frantically look at her, and back to my wallet, trying to shove the drugs inside.

"Hey..!"

She stopped. 

"What are you doing?"

"I'm not doing anything—"

I was cut off by Max walking out of the bathroom. He waved at both of us and walked away.

Amber looked at me. She looked so betrayed. She looked so hurt. I've never hated myself more than I did in that moment.

"Amber.. I swear I wasn't going to take them, I already paid for them."

You're a fucking idiot, Aspen.

"Give them to me, Aspen."

"No."

"Give them to me."

"Why should I? You don't know me, Amber."

Amber walked closer to me, followed with a smack sound.