love isn't always fair (bvb fanfic)

moving in

ashley and i walked off the bus following the others. we all grabbed our things and stood outside of a house it looked huge from the outside but it was probably just normal compared to the place my family lived at. 

there where two cars in the drive way and two on the street one for each of the guys. "do you wall want to come inside?" ashley asked grabbing his bag from the bus. 

"sure" all the guys said together. the panic was still there but i was trying so hard to hide it. i looked around andy and jinxx where laughing at something jake had said ashley was trying to open the front door mari was shakeing her head at jake. 

i felt so unimportant like i could leave and none of them would give a fuck, like they all never really cared about me. i was letting the toughts consume me "addy?" i looked at jake who was standing in front of me. 

"addy have you heard a word i have said?" i show my head "sorry i was distracted." he laughed at me. "i said are you going to go inside. i looked around all the guys had gone inside ashley was standing at the door waiting for me and jake to walk in. 

i followed jake to the door ashley stepped away from the door to let us in. i moved away from him, i didn't want to be here i want to leave i want to go home i don't care if my dad is there at least i would know why i feel this fear. 

i looked around we where in a big living space off to the  right side was a kitchen with a bar and chairs, there was a hallway that looked like it had about three rooms and a bathroom, there where stairs leading down to what looked like a basement but i couldn't see it all. 

jinxx and andy where sitting on the couch fighting over the remote, jake had walked right to the kitchen and opened the fridge mari was standing next to jake talking, i looked around and saw ashley looking at me. 

"what?" i asked unsure if he had talked to me, everything and gone dull i couldn't really hear anything. "are you ok?" he asked as my hearing went back into focus. "uh yeah i guess i just have a head ache." i said trying to brush it off.

"do you want to take a nap?" he asked searching my eyes for some emotion something to answer him.i let go of all emotion in my eyes all the emotion ran away from my eyes like nothing in the world mattered. 

i just looked away. "maybe you should take a nap" mari said walking up to me. I'm not sure i heard her exactly i looked at her confused i wasn't quite understanding everything happening round me. 

"alright ash why don't you show me where to take her?" mari said looking past me to him, i ignored them all and tuned out all sound i couldn't hear anything over the ringing in my ears. 

i didn't notice everyone in the room was looking at me, they all looked like i was a small child but for once it didn't bother me, my vision was going black, i refused to fall back i refused to pass out i forced myself to stay up. 

"alright come on girls" i heard ashley voice brake through the ringing in my ears, i blinked to see what was happening, ashley was walking down the hallway mari following she was trying to get me to follow them. 

i shook my head i was trying to get back to normal, i walked to ashley and mari. ashley walked past the bathroom and a bedroom. he lead us into a bed room that did look like it was used. 

"why don't you take a nap babe" i heard him saying looking into my eyes begging for me to agree. "i don't want to" i tried to protest. "ill stay in here with you for a while if you want" mari said begging me to sleep. 

"i still don't want to" i said trying to further protest "ill stay with you if it will help you get to sleep" ashley spoke up searching my eyes pleading with me. 

i looked at the bed still in a state of confusion "no you don't have to" i said hoping he would press to. "no i want to tell me if you want me" he said asking me to let him stay i smiled "ok fine" i said. 

mari smiled "ok ill tell the guys addy you get some sleep" she walked out closing the door behind her. ashley hugged me then walked us over to the bed, i laid down and turned over putting my head on his chest, "are you ok?" ashley voice broke through my still confused ringing ears.

i shook my head "i don't feel well" i said quietly into his chest. "its ok just get some sleep" ashley said kissing my head. i closed my eyes and quietly dosed off.