Mini Series: Backstories from Falling For My Sensei

Emiko Miscarries

⚠️‼️Trigger Warning for pregnancy loss‼️⚠️

Timeframe: Occurred around Ari's 7th month of pregnancy.

Word Count: 3,446

"Well? What does it say?" I watch Asuma pace back and forth in our bedroom as I let my feet dangle from the bathroom counter where I'm seated.

"It's 5 minutes honey. Still another minute."

I anxiously fiddle with my thumbs, knowing the stick I just peed on is sitting directly to my right.

He stops, standing in the doorway to stare at me with nervous eyes.

"What do we do if it's positive?" He asks me, side glancing at the test.

My lips twist to the side as I think to myself for a moment.

"What would you want to do? I mean I know we've never had a real conversation about it."

He looks down at the ground, sighing loudly.

"We don't have to- we don't have to, um, keep it." I whisper, watching the way he tenses up at the suggestion.

He steps forward, his hands finding their place on my waist. He leans towards me, placing his forehead against mine.

"Emiko. I'm not afraid. For fuck's sake, I asked you to marry me. Do you think I've never given thought to having kids?"

I shrug my shoulders as I bite down on my lower lip.

"I don't know. I mean it just wasn't planned. I know with Ari being pregnant, I've hinted at having a baby soon but I thought we would get married and be married for a couple of years before we had kids. I don't want to rush you into anything you're not prepared for."

He chuckles, pulling away from me slightly.

"And you are prepared for a baby? This is a surprise to both of us. But if that test is positive, it's meant to be, right? Everything happens for a reason?"

I nod my head, placing my hands on his thick forearms, rubbing my palms up the length of his arms.

"Everything happens for a reason." I repeat, my lips turning into a small smile.

He side-eyes the test before looking back at me.

"It's been at least 5 minutes."

I take a deep breath in, nodding my head.

He reaches over, grabbing the test in his hands before looking up at me.

"Do you want to read it or do you want me to?"

The butterflies in my stomach fly around erratically as my hands begin to tremble.

"You." I say quickly.

He nods once looking down at the test covered by his hand.

"Ugh, wait, I can't do it. I'm so fucking nervous."

I giggle as I reach out and snatch it from his hand.

"I'll do it. Ready?" I look up at him. He places his palms down onto my knees as the nervous energy runs wildly throughout my entire body.

"I'm ready."

I look down at the test and there it is.

I stare at it for a moment, shaking my head gently before I begin to giggle.

Everything is about to change for us. But there's not another person on this planet that I would rather have by my side.

"Well?" He whispers.