𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 [Bellatrix Lestrange]

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟓

Bellatrix didn't fully understand what had happened.  Everything happened so fast. The words came out of her mouth without her thinking. She sat in front of her mirror in her bedroom.  She was looking at herself. 
"What did I do? It's not that I didn't mean everything.... I'm not a lesbian..." These thoughts flooded her head.

She felt sick at the idea of ​​Alexandria with someone like Regulus.  With someone else. She was the only one who could touch her. From the reflection of the mirror she saw a tear rolling down her cheek. She was thinking about her impulsive words, the slurs she said to the girl.

Alexandria would never forgive her. It broke her heart thinking she ended their dates
"Why do I want her forgiveness?"  she was thinking.
They were enemies after all. What would change? However, the fact that she wouldn't be intimate with the girl again made her sad. She was carving her touch, feeling her presence.  Bellatrix began to cry.  She had hurt a person who cared about her. 

"What do I care?"  she said to herself. She realized deep inside her she cared about Alexandria. And, she broke her heart.
"Stupid Bella" mumbled and hit her forehead with her palm. She started sobbing. She was angry and disappointed with herself.

With her selfishness.

She had to admit what she feared the most. "Shit, I'm in love with her" she murmured.  Bellatrix was crying even more now that she lost Alexandria.  She realized how important it was to her.  He had to win her back.

On the other hand, Alexandria held back her tears and went to the Gryffindor's common room.  She wanted to talk to someone. 

To comfort her.

She would say everything.  She could not keep her feelings secret anymore.  Someone to advise her.  When she arrived at the commune room, she saw Remus reading a book on his own.  "Alexandria, what is happening?"  the boy asked, seeing his friend obviously upset.  Alexandria sat next to him and began to cry. 

To comfort her, Remus hugged her while she was crying on his shoulder.  "Shhh, calm down and tell me what's going on" he said in a whisper.  Then Alexandria took the courage and said it all. 
"Bellatrix" whispered
Remus did not understand what the girl meant and looked at her in astonishment. 
"Do you remember when I stayed at Sirius' house?"  asked Alexandria.  Remus nodded in agreement. 
"One wonderful day in the woods, Bellatrix had followed me, we had a fight for my notebook and she kissed me" said Alexandria, looking across the fireplace.  Remus was silent. 
"I don't kiss back by it felt good. She avoided me fo. Until..." the girl stopped talking. 
"What happened?" the boy asked curiously. 
"Do you remember when Lily was poisoned and I left early?"  asked Alexandria. 
"Yes, I remember that" said the boy.  Alexandria sighed. 
"That night I went to find Bellatrix . I thought she did.  And as we were fighting ......we ended up in the same bed"
Remus had his mouth open.  Bellatrix and Alexandria together. 
"This went on for weeks until ..." added Alexandria as streams of tears flooded her eyes. 
"Until she told me that she does not feel anything for me ... she only wants me for sex and in fact he called me dyke" she continued while she burst into tears. Her heart was aching thinking Bellatrix's words.

The boy was trying to calm her down.  he was surprised by all this.  "For so long ....in the afternoons you disappeared and you were shagging Bellatrix?  And that was the person you said you were interested in?"asked Remus in astonishment.  Alexandria nodded as tears welled up in her eyes.  "I will not tell anyone" he swore
"I know you are probably heartbroken but you deserve better than that. Bellatrix isn't worth it. She is mean and she won't love you properly. She incapable of love" he added hugging tightly his friend
Alexandria wiped her eyes because her vision was blurred. 
"Remus, I am lesbian" the girl said softly. 
"It's okay. I am sure the rest of us will support you and love you" Remus looked at the girl and kissed her forehead. It felt like ages in his embrace. But his embrace was feeling the same as Bellatrix's. Alexandria gulped.

"I think I'm in love, Remus"