[W.I.P] Diary

d...day te

He
He asked me out
I said yes of course
I'm just gonna take it as a date
I genuinely
Kind of
Have the feeling he likes me back

Which is very nice
It makes me feel safe
And i don't feel stupid for liking him, "knowing" he likes me back

I just
Really want to
Hold his hand...should i?
Does he have to go home? Should i bring him home? Does he want to go to the restaurant before that?
I'm gonna ask him

I hope I just...don't mess this up, you know...
I look like an old creepy man...in my opinion
I haven't really taken care of myself in ages

I wash myself of course
Since
I
I do sometimes... Smoke...certain things
You'd get it.

It's a prescription from the doctor, to make me stay calm
I really hope vesper doesn't think of me as a druggie
Because I genuinely am not

I don't show any signs of addiction
I mean I can go without it, there's like no pressure i give myself

Anyways uh
I hope i don't smell too much like it...i don't wanna.. y'know...mess this up really hard.

I'm just
Gonna take things slow