(This entire part is Mattia POV)
Mattia POV:
I just cry and cry knowing I ruined him. I'm losing my mind Jenna never wanted me she wanted me for the sex. I ruined Kairi and I know it. It's all my fault and he's never gonna trust me again. I lost almost everyone because of myself. My moms mad at me and so is my dad. I'm losing everyone, sometimes I wonder if the world would be better if I wasn't here. If I was gone would everyone be happy? Would Kairi be happy? Cause I'm so mad at myself I could just leave...
(Self harm⚠️ please never commit. It's not worth it I know it's pain)
Later that day I had sat in my bathroom cutting my arm. I was more than mad at myself I ruined everyone's lives I ruined my own. I hurt the boy I love most and I can't live with knowing that. Everything started fading away. I was gone. Or so I thought....
I woke up in the hospital. Wtf? Why am I here? "Hello Mr. Polbio" I hear someone say and I look up to a nurse? Hovering over me. "Why- what- why am I here??!" I ask while looking around. I seen kairi? "HOW DID I GET HERE?!" I ask now yelling. "This young man brought you here. He found you in your bathroom with blood all over." The nurse told me....
Kairi had found me.
"I'm sorry. I went to check on you and apologize. And I seen you and panicked and called 911 quick." Kairi says while putting his head down crying. "I didn't want you to pass away." He says while sniffing. "Oh..." was all I could bring myself to say. "Why?" I ask. "What do you mean why?" Kairi asks while crying. "Why did you save me? Why didn't you let me just die?" I ask slightly crying. "I couldn't do that. We've been friends for forever and to see you pass away would break me even more. I love you Mattia and I need you in my life not in a grave." Kairi says while holding his hand on mine. "But I ruined your life. Why would you save someone like that." I ask while trying to figure out why he would save someone like me. "Because Mattia. No matter what we made a promise. *to save each other no matter the situation. We are best friends we mean more then the stars*" he says while crying a little harder. Thats when it all hit me. I know I made that promise. I made that promise in 3rd grade, never in my life did I let Kairi get hurt. And as he just said he wasn't about to let me get hurt. "Kairi I just need you to know I appreciate you. I love you more than anything and for you to save my life means everything. I know I've been such an asshole to you and practically ruined your life you seen past that. You still care for me and love me. That takes a lot. You love me and can see that I love you, I miss the old times and when I would actually not blow you off cause I was scared to be with you. I miss being best friends but I fucked it all up." I say crying loud. "Look Mattia. We all make mistakes. I understand, we're only human. I see the good parts about you not what you have done. I see the amazing parts in life not what you threw at me. I love you and I know for one goddamn second I'm not gonna let you pass away. Not without me..." Kairi says while laughing a little bit. "I love you Kairi." Was all I say before sitting there and looking at the ceiling. I got up and hugged him. Yes my arm hurt like a bitch but it was wrapped up and I was fine. I'm not about to just leave him there crying. "Kairi, I need to know." I say before looking at him trying to have him let go of me. "Yes Mattia?" He says while looking at me. "Can I have one more chance?" I ask while hoping he will give me one more.
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