He looked at me when I ate.
"What are you looking at? Do I have food around my mouth?"
He laughed and sighed.
"I had forgotten how beautiful you are, Rachel"
I blushed and looked down on my pizzaslize.
"I wrote you letters, Harry..?"
He looked ashamed down and said "I know... every letter is full of tears. I cried everytime you wrote to me, and I have saved them all. Niall red them too, he forced me to travel to London to see you"
"Well... God bless Niall" I mumbeled.
He tried to say something but his words didnt reach his mouth. I took a deep breath while I waited for it. He looked at me with wet eyes. I looked away trying not to scream. "I'm sorry, Rachel. I'm sorry" He wanted me to look at him and tell him *I forgive you, Harry* but I couldent.
"I tried to kill myself Harry. Several times."
"Rachel, are you out of your mind? What were you think-"
"I starved myself! I cutted my wrists hoping that I cutted to deep! I jumped from the roof, but I didnt even broke a bone! I drank untill I threw up, but then I kept drinking!" I screamed. All the words and all my pain flew out of me like butterflies in a cage. I walked over to him. We fell down on the floor, and I looked him in the eyes. "But I didnt die. And I know why. This is why. You are why. You came back to me, and saved me before it was too late. And thats why I love you Harry. You are my lifesaver. I cant live without you, I just cant" He grabbed my cheeks and his fingertips followed my cheekbones down to my neck. "I love you, Rachel" And then he kissed me.
