Dead Fowers

I smile in your memory

4 year ago

I was here in this room

Dealing with the home rules

Trying to find energy to keep working

Thinking that in the next day I finally could see you

But my mom called

Telling me that you're gone

I didn't understand first I said "ok"

And she was crying, telling me 

"He passed away right in front of my eyes, I'm sorry"

I said "ok"

I didn't understand

The surgery was okay 

You were recovering 

Just fine 

And then 

You're gone

I didn't believe it 

And now 

Today 

I still can't believe it at all 

Yesterday 

I smiled, I laughed 

And I think you would've been proud

Proud of your little baby growing 

Getting stronger

Accepting that you're not here

Not anymore 

It hurts my feelings I admit

Makes me cry 

But I'm doing it 

I know you want me happy 

And I know you know that it isn't easy

But I smiled 

I smile in your memory 

I knew that's what you would've wanted 

So I will smiled 

But sometimes I will still cry 

But I promise that 

 I always will care you in my heart 

And I will

Smile in your memory

I miss you <3