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S (Silenas POV in case u don't get that :))
Love,
love is a complicated thing. Not just in the way you say your love life is complicated because the person you love doesn't love you back. It's deeper than that.
Everyone is expected to love, to love certain people and love in a certain way, but not everyone lives up to those expectations and that's what's complicated.

I'm supposed to be an expert. Silena Buergard, daughter of the love goddess she must know. To her, love must be crystal clear!! Right?
But I am so confused.
I carry the normal basket of expectations for love but I also carry another one. A basket full of expectations of me carrying that other basket easily. But it's really heavy.

Charles and I are doing great. Since we officially became a couple, love has felt a little easier. Now we at least look perfect from the outside. When we sit by the water, my head in his lap, love feels easier than a math test for first graders.
But when we fight behind the Hephaestus cabin, all I want to do is quit. Quit being the daughter of Aphrodite and never ever think about love again.
When I hang out with Clarisse and wonder if every girl can't keep their eyes of their best friends or if it's just me. When her smile and the curve of her hip makes me question everything I have ever thought about love. Then all I want to do is put all my love in a box and fly to Alaska. Travel were the gods can't see me and bury my heart deep in the snow.

It would be so nice to never have to think about love. To never think about what my mom would think of who ever I end up with. But I love love. I want to be loved and I want to love. I want to wake up next to a person who would be my favourite person in the whole world. I want to laugh in the bright morning and kiss when the sun goes down.

Girl, pull it together I tell myself. You are Silena Buergard, daughter of Aphrodite and she knows this shit!!
But why is she so confused then??

AN: uhm I don't know if I like this but I think I do!! I kinda like what I did with the endings. Anyways I still have very little ideas for the actual plot so that's fun lol!! And also why am I even writing ANs?? The first chapter has three reads and that I think that's all me lol!! If u read this comment or vote so I know u have read it lol cuz I am confused!!