𝐎𝐔𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐎 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒 *:･ﾟ✧

5 ------------- 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐛𝐲𝐞

♥ depressed suicidal au! Includes suicide thoughts and angst and more so if u dont like those stuff please skip this chapter! ♥

note: This chapter means alot to me because Himiko's past is based off my own past because ive always wanted to write a story where i include my own personal life and i guess i just choose a oumeno oneshot haha.

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HIMIKO POV:

i feel the cold wind push my hair back revealing my face full of bruises and tears. Tears forming in my eyes sliding down my cheek until finally falling down on the ground.. i would soon be just a tear that would fall and hit the ground splattering all over. How did it end up like this...?

NO ONES POV

''YOUR SO GODDAMN STUPID! I WISH I NEVER HAD A CHILD WITH A WHORE LIKE YOU.'' ''OH YEAH? I WISH I NEVER HAD HOOKED UP WITH YOU BECAUSE NOW I HAVE A USELESS CHILD THAT KEEPS ME FROM LIVING MY LIFE'' the arguments didnt stop, poor girl was only 3 yet she was blamed for everything. Everyday she had to listen to their dumb arguments and it was always about her.. ''WERE GETTING A DIVORCE'' the little girl's eyes widened when she heard this statement. As her tear fell down and splattered she found herself standing in court where her two so called parents argued all over again. 'why me?' she always thought. She was so tired of the arguments, she covered her ears. She didnt want to hear more... It was like everyones face got some sort of X on their face. She got so overwhelmed, that she fell and when she landed it she found herself being older, 1st grade to be exact. She looked up to see her father being the one who pushed her. ''YOU NEED TO DO THIS! YOUR SUCH A DISSAPOINTMENT. I DONT CARE IF ITS 9TH GRADE MATH I DID THIS BEFORE SCHOOL'' he raised his hand and swung it through the air making it land on himiko's cheek. She couldnt help but cry, even though he abused her alot it was still suprising. A tear fell when his hand came in contact with her cheek, i mean its only natural. He got closer to her and began to breathe on her neck. There she was, laying naked on the ground. ''dont tell anyone about this himiko! Its your fault for being such a whore'' but himiko ended up saying that to the police. She expected for everything to become better but it didnt when her mom and dad convinced her that she did a wrong thing and tore everyone apart. She was forced to lie, manipulated by her own parents. This happened a second time. It was torture... after that her father only did a little physical abuse and would do more emotional abuse aswell as her mother. Why her..? Her school life wasnt better. Bullies and fake friends, everything was trash. Her father would touch her, abuse her and many other stuff. Her mom had anger issues and threaten her about killing her. Only thing on himikos mind was suicide.. she talked about it with her dad but he laughed saying she has a perfect life. She couldnt even hang out with the few friends she had because her father was controlling. She was locked in a cage and in her eyes the only key was suicide. Thats how she ended up there, on the roof. She took her shoes off as a symbol of suicide and took out her pins she usually had in her hair. She had written suicide messages for everyone and wished them a good life. Goodbye world. Goodbye Father. Goodbye everyone. Now i can finally find peace! She was about to let her body flow with the wind and fall but she heard someone scream her name. It was none other than the annoying purple haired gremlin, Kokichi Ouma. ''HIMIKO! DONT GO'' he said tears spilling out of his eyes. ''so you got my suicide message?'' she responded with a calm smile forming on her pink glossy lips. ''what suicide message..? Tenko told me you were going to kill yourself so i came as fast as i could..'' he said still crying. ''oh thats because i have the message right here'' she said. She came up to him and gave him a white note that was folded into a smaller note. She walked over to the edge of the roof, tears flowing out of her eyes and going with the wind. she looked back at Kokichi. ''thats not so gangster of you, is it kokichi?'' she said with her calm beautiful smile. ''im sorry but you know what they say'' he was confused. how was she so calm? ''w-what do u mean..?'' he said removing his tears as new ones spilled out. ''not every story has a good ending, but ill make sure to smile while the end is near! '' that was her last words until she let her body over the edge and fell onto the ground splashing like she was a tear falling from someones eye and hitting the ground splashing into a small puddle. After that event Kokichi never opened up for anyone or loved anyone. He would make sure to wait until he dies so they can reunite in heaven. 5 years later and he still thinks about the letter which he hasnt opened. ''i guess its time for me to open it'' he said while crying.

''dear Kokichi

im probs dead by now and im sorry for not being able to manage to stay alive. If you didnt know I had a massive crush on you and i hope you feel the same! This is my goodbye isnt it? Life is truly an adventure.. you never know what it leads you to, and mine lead me to you. Thank you for being with me in the last years of my adventure and i hope you enjoyed the years i was in your long adventure. Please move on from my death and live a happy life! Get a wife and kids and be happy. I want you to live your adventure to the fullest and to move on from the adventure we were on together. I will always love you and i wish our love story could have a happy ending. if you do love me that is! But maybe this is a mix of endings? Im happy i have found a way to peace and i hope that you will be the person to rush up and try to save me because then my last moments will be with you. this sure is a emotional ending huh? theres sad things and happy things about our ending. Maybe mostly sad things and the good things are just me. Gosh im selfish haha! But not every story has a good ending. I wish this wasnt the case but it is. This is my final goodbye to the ultimate supreme leader Kokichi Ouma. I love you and always will - your little mage ''

before Kokichi realised it he was crying like a baby. 'You idiot Himi...' 

YALL THIS IS NOT MY FULL TRAUMA BC IM TOO LAZY TO WRITE IT SO IF U WANT A LONGER VERSION WITH MY FULL TRAUMA LMK BC I ENJOYED MAKING THIS IT JUST MADE ME HAPPY WRITING MY OWN PAST

angsty angst woop woop