It's always been you |Louis Partridge x Fem Reader

chapter 50

"what are you doing here Timothee?" I say feeling the tears in my eyes.

he rubs his face "y/n"

"what there's nothing to say?? you ruined the only chance of being on Jimmy Fallon, you know my dad was going to be there and we weren't talking, and you know how my depression and anxiety has been getting way better and now I'm back to square one"

"i-"

I cut him off.

"what do you want from me Timothee I loved you. I wore makeup because if I looked like those models I thought you'd like me more "

He stands there in silence.

"I tried so hard to be everything that you like and you go off with her? why are you doing this to me" I began to break down in tears.

He walks close and tries to hug me. I push him away.

"get out. get out and never come back you piece of shit who doesn't have the fucking balls to breakups with his girlfriend and could have avoided this whole situation with five simple words" I slam the door and put my back against the door and slowly slide down and cry on the floor.

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a month passes by...

y/ndowney

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I took a break from social media. So many fake rumors.

I couldn't handle it. It was happening all too fast. I took the time and reflected.

I turned on my phone and sat it on my pillow getting to the right angle.

I went to the camera app and pressed record.

"Hi it's y/n and I've been gone for a little bit and during this time I gathered all my thoughts and feelings and made 2 songs"

I took a deep breath putting my guitar on my lap and started playing the first song.

(authors note)

here are the lyrics if you were wondering (ty liv<3)

I wore makeup when we dated
'Cause I thought you'd like me more
If I looked like the other prom queens
I know that you loved before
Tried so hard to be everything that you liked
Just for you to say you're not the compliment typeAnd I knew how you took your coffee
And your favorite songs by heart
I read all of your self-help books
So you'd think that I was smart
Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me
I knew from the start this is exactly how you'd leaveYou found someone more exciting
The next second, you were gone
And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong
And you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough for you
And all I ever wanted was to be enough for youAnd maybe I'm just not as interesting
As the girls you had before
But God, you couldn't have cared less
About someone who loved you more
I'd say you broke my heart
But you broke much more than that
Now I don't want your sympathy
I just want myself backBefore you found someone more exciting
The next second, you were gone
And you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong
And you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enoughDon't you think I loved you too much to be used and discarded?
Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?
But don't tell me you're sorry, boy
Feel sorry for yourself
'Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else
And they'll think that I am so exciting
And you'll be the one who's cryingYeah, you always say I'm never satisfied
But I don't think that's true
You say I'm never satisfied
But that's not me, it's you
'Cause all I ever wanted was to be enough
But I don't think anything could ever be enough
For you, enough for you, oh-oh
No, nothing's enough for you