TW: Selfharm⚠️
TW:Smut⚠️
I wake up in the morning with a heavy headache and go directly to shower even though i have a hangover.
I shower quickly and when I'm finished I put a towel around me and brush my teeth. As i walk out if the bathroom Mattheo sits on my bed,almost sleeping again.
„Morning bitch" he says and i laugh
„I'm checking on you,because of yesterday" he explains
„How did you sleep?" i mumble
„Horrible,you?"
„I feel like I'm dead" i chuckle and go to my closet
I pick out an pink lace underwear set and go to the bathroom again and put it on. Then i go to my room again and put on grey sweatpants and a black crop top.
„Is Draco still sleeping?" i ask while brushing my hair
„Yeah"
„I'm a shitty person" i sigh
"I hurt people that i love" i add
„You both are so much a like,you do realize that?That's why you fight so much" he laughs
„I'm not like him. You know i hate Draco so much because i love him so hard,i wasn't supposed to fall for him" i explain
„You can't choose who you fall for,Y/n. And besides that you two are made for each other" he smiles
„I hope so" i answer
„Why do you hope so,you know the answer" he laughs
„Actually i don't. I don't know if he even loves me the way i love him,i grew up being the second choice,so I'm constantly questioning and overthinking everything" i explain to him
„I'm sorry,Y/n. But I've known Draco since we're little children and as you know i saw him with may girls,but with you he's different. He even introduced you to his mother and she obviously loves you,i promise you he loves you,don't worry"
„Thank you for comforting me" i smile and hug him quick
"You know what,let's go eat something" he says and i agree
We go to the great hall and we sit down at our table and Mattheo eats and eats and eats,but when i wanted to take a bite i remember.
'You're so selfish even though you're so hideous and fat.' 'You're so fat.' 'You really want to eat again?' 'You eat way to much'
I could not eat a thing after those sentences.
And after some minutes passing by Mattheo notices that I'm not eating.
"Don't you wanna eat?" He asks
"No I'm not hungry,probably too much alcohol last night" i chuckle trying to lie
Then we get ripped oit if our conversation by Draco sitting down next to Mattheo, Draco is looking like shit.
"Hi" Draco mumbles
"Hi" Mattheo and I say awkwardly
"How are you?" I ask Draco
"Pretty shit,you?"
"Same" i sigh and play with the food on my table with a fork
"So,uhm,still pissed?" Draco asks and i sigh
I think,not knowing what to answer bc i still am pissed but also feel a bit bad. As i want to answer a girl sits down next to Draco and i look at her with a disgusted look on my face.
