it's 4am & i'm up with my thoughts.
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what should i do?
should i close my eyes and let the chips fall wherever they may lie?
should i throw caution to the wind?
should i let the guard down or keep it up?
do i let this fizzle like every other time?
do i try?
do i assume this won't work so i don't get my hopes up?
should i give him a chance?
do i give myself this chance?
i wish for happiness.
i wish for love.
i wish for peace.
i never wished for how it should come.
should it come in the form of a man?
should it come in the form of self-love?
should it come in the form of a goal being achieved?
i never wished for when it should come.
does it come the next full moon?
does it come when i least expect it?
does it come when i somewhat got my shit together?
all i know is i want it & im waiting for it.
but is this man the want i been waiting for?
or
is this the lesson to get me to what i been waiting for?
is this the love i've been waiting on?
is this the man i'd been dreaming of?
should i try?
should get out of my own way?
do i give him an honest chance?
do i let him prove me wrong?
i just wonder has all my past fuck ups with love ruined me to the point of no return.
i wish for happiness like someone can be the creator of it.
happiness is what you get from something.
so,
if i get happiness from being with this man, have i solved my problem?
if i get happiness from trying & it working out, have i solved my problem?
does it prove this man is it?
does it prove my wishes came true?
should i ask for a sign?
should i keep my fingers crossed?
what should i do?
only time will tell...
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based on el by el.
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