Summary : (Y/N) compares herself to Niall's new girlfriend
*EDITED* 20.01.2022
Now she is talking to her best friend Camilla about the way she feels.
"Y'know I could just start crying every damn second. I wish I wouldn't feel like this, but I just can't seem to let it go. She looks too good to be true with her paper white teeth and perfect body." I say to Camilla while she walks over to me, handing me my tea.
We are having our weekly girl's night today so naturally I am pouring my heart out to her. There is not much she had to tell me today so why not using that chance to tell someone how I feel.
"Never forget that your feelings are valid, okay? But you really shouldn't compare yourself to her, that'll kill you slowly." She speaks.
"I am just so sick of myself; I'd rather be anyone else Y'know? It was so hard to get over him and then I saw the pictures of them, and I lost it again. It's just... when we were together, he always told me that I looked pretty, and it didn't matter how I look or how much I weight but the moment we break up he starts dating a model." I sigh.
It's true, it was hard for me to get over him. I thought he was my soulmate. He was always a true gentleman and always did everything to make me smile. God, I loved him so much. And if we are being honest here, I think I still love him. I shouldn't, I know but I just can't seem to help myself.
"I think I am jealous and honestly I have every reason to be. She is prettier, skinnier, taller and over all of that she has him."
"Of course, it's hard when you see other people getting the things you want but don't you think you got caught up in it all?" Camilla asks me with a pout.
"Yeah maybe, but no matter how hard I try to be happy for them I'm just not. She has a ton of cool friends and goes partying every week, in her daddy's nice car, she is living THE life. I want to be her so bad and I don't even know her. All I can see is where I should be, happier prettier- "
"Jealousy, jealousy." Camilla interrupts me, shaking her head.
AN / Yeah so this is a short one and overall if I am honest I don't like this. I think about editing this one.
