Infection

Chapter 1. Everything will change.

Fandral yawned, rubbed at his eyes. He was tired. Exhausted. He sat on the edge of the bed, cupped Loki's cheek. The trickster leaned in to the touch.
- Don't...- Loki murmured.- Please! Please! Don't.
- Shh.- Fandral whispered, covering Loki with the blanket.- Hush, love. Calm down, Lo. Calm down. Look at me, sweetheart, it's me, it's just me. Loki!
- No!- Loki woke with a start.- Fandral? Fandral!- he breathed as he managed to focus on his lover.- Damn. Could you please... Could you please stay?
- Yeah... Of course!- Fandral said.- Yes, of course.
***
They lay there, together, Loki's head on Fandral's chest, Fandral's hand casually thrown around the trickster's waist. Fandral closed his eyes, allowing himself to relax. One day he would get Loki out of here. They would be safe. But not anytime soon...
- Fan! What have I done wrong?- Loki whispered.
- Nothing!- Fandral replied.- Nothing, my Prince!
- Then why...- Loki's voice cracked.- Why does he hate me? Why?- his lips quivered.- Fandral, why?
- I...- Fandral gulped.- I have no idea.- he pressed a kiss to Loki's temple.- But... We'll get through it all, Lo. You and I.- Fandral whispered.- Together.
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Fandral had all but forgotten what it felt like... To sleep through the night. So had Loki. Nightmares were chasing them. Terrible, terrible nightmares! Fandral dreamed of Loki being tortured or raped, dreamed of Loki dying. Screaming in agony. Loki dreamed of Fandral turning his back on him... He was scared of ending up alone... Alone with Thor.
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- I have to go.- Fandral breathed, squeezed Loki's hand. Loki grumbled.- Sweetness.- he whispered.
- I love you!- Loki said.- And I...- he looked away, blushing.- I want you.- he breathed.- No. No. I... I want to... But if you...- Loki took a deep breath.- I want a child.- he whispered.- Your child. I want...
- No.- Fandral said.- No.- he repeated.- Honey, as much as I love you... We can't do it! You know we can't! Oh, Norns! I want you too! But...- Fandral's voice was quiet. So quiet that Loki had to hold his breath to hear him.- If Thor... If he found out that you are...- Fandral sighed.- Look, I gotta go now.- he whispered.- I will be back in a matter of days...
- No. No, you won't.- Loki said. And he was right.
- In a matter of days!- Fandral repeated calmly.- I will make sure you are safe, get rid of Thor, come back to you. Then we will start from the scratch. I promise...- he placed a kiss on Loki's forehead.- A new, happy life. A new home. Children. Anything.
- Anything?- Loki raised his eyebrow.- Can I have a goodbye kiss?- he asked. He knew that Fandral wouldn't reject him. And they both knew that he will lose control. They both knew Fandral would go further than a goodbye kiss. They didn't mind.
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- Brotha!- Thor called.- Loki! Brotha, come here!
- Thor?- Loki chuckled.- Long time no seen, huh?
- Aye.- Thor said. Something was off. That smile. That damn smile. It scared Loki. It scared him to death.- Come in!- Thor said as he entered Odin's chamber. Gulping, Loki followed him.- Undress!
- Brother? I beg your pardon.- Loki's heart sank.
- Shh!- Thor whispered.- Too much talking, Loki.
Do as I say.- he said. Loki slowly took his clothes off. His hands were trembling.- Good.- Thor said with a smile. Loki cringed.- Very good! Kneel!- A shiver ran down Loki's spine.- Kneel!- Thor said, as he took his clothes off. Loki obeyed.- Come on. You know how it's done, don't you?- he smirked.
***
- Oh!- Loki groaned.- Fuck me! Fuck me already.-he yelled. Fandral grinned but didn't stop.- Fan, I am... I'm c...- he gasped. Fandral suddenly pulled away. Loki kissed him slowly, passionately.- Fan!
- Not so fast...- Fandral breathed. Loki kissed him again.- You like the taste of your cum, don't you?- he smirked. Loki moaned loudly through the kiss.
***
- Mmm, yeah.- Thor groaned.- Oh, yeah! Lick it!Come on, lick it off. Everything, every last drop.- he whispered.- Good. Lay on the bed. Right now.
***
- Lay down.- Fandral breathed.- Spread your legs and... Hey? What is it, love?- he wiped Loki's tear away with his thumb.- Loki, look at me... Sweetie.
- I am sorry.- Loki sniffled.- Fandral. Will it hurt?
- Yes. A little bit. At first. Then it will be pleasant.
***
Loki winced from the sudden pain. Tears formed in his eyes. He gritted his teeth. Groaned. It hurt.
- Stop. Please! Thor. It hurts! Thor!- Loki sobbed out.- I can't take it.- he whined.- Oooooh! Please!
- Shush... You don't want father to come, do you?
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Fandral was gentle. So gentle. So unlike Thor! He kissed Loki, to distract him from pain, whispered soft words and eventually, Loki managed to relax.
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- What, is my cock too big for you?- Thor smiled.
- Please, please...- Loki begged.- Please... Stop it!
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- Fuck!- Loki breathed.- Don't stop!- he moaned.- Don't stop...- he begged.- So good, so damn good!
Oh! Please! Please, don't stop. Fuck me. Fuck me.
- Like that, hmm?- Fandral purred. Loki moaned.
- Yes!- he screamed. Fandral's moves were slower than Thor's. Less painful.- Ah! Mmm! Fuck! Ahh!
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- It hurts!- Loki moaned, bitting his lip.- It hurts!
- Patience, brotha.- Thor said, pressing Loki into the mattress. Loki prayed to the Norns that Odin wouldn't come in, which he, by the way, just did.
- Father.- Loki gasped.- Father, please! Help me!
- Off the bed. Now.- Odin's voice was strict, cold.
- Father!- Loki sobbed. He was safe... Wasn't he?
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Fandral smiled, bit Loki's nipple. Kissed his neck.
- Lay on your stomach, Lo.- he purred.- Trust me.
- No!- Loki squeezed his hand.- Please... I want to see your face. I...- Loki swallowed. He couldn't do it. He couldn't bring himself to tell Fandral that...
- Shhhh.- Fandral whispered.- I will not hurt you.
- Ok.- Loki breathed as he was about to lay on his stomach.- I do trust you. I do.- he hoped Fandral didn't hear the tears in his voice. And he did.- It...
- Lo!- Fandral whispered.- Tell me, what's wrong. First you want me, then you don't... First you ask, beg me to fuck you, then you make me think I am about to rape you... What is it, bunny?- he asked.
- A few days ago,- Loki sniffled.- Thor and Odin... They both...- he sobbed.- Fandral, they raped me. It hurt. But I... Even after that, I still want a child. I wanted... I still want you. I know... you wouldn't hurt me. Deep down, I am scared. But I love you!  And I always will, Fandral...- Loki said.- Always...
- I will get us out of here, love.- Fandral breathed, barely able to hide the fury in his voice. "Fandral, they raped me!" He kissed Loki on the forehead.- Tomorrow!- he said.- Everything will change, Lo!
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Everything will change. Yeah. They both knew it.  But who knows... For the better, or for the worse?