Hateing Love

Love.

"(Y/N)?" Eren asked me.

"Yeah?" I looked up at him from my plate of food.

"During training , you knew a lot about me, but you never told me about you..." I froze as he talked I never wanted to tell anyone about my past, especially Eren...what would he think of me....

"I guess I just thought, that maybe I should know....."

"E-eren.... I.... um.."

"I know it probably  isn't great, b-but maybe I can help you...because... because maybe its the reason for your dreams"

"I-" What am I supossed to tell him? I could lie, I've done that before, but its Eren. The only guy I've ever let this far in...Could I really tell him though...

"Please, (y/n)" his eyes begged me to tell, I, I can't. My memories suddenly all came back to me.

Sitting on the couch waiting for my mom, and then realizing she wouldn't come back...Watching as my only friend was ripped away....Those men that found me, right before I was compleatly on my own...how could I ever tell him.....but don't I need to...he says he wants to help me....

He was still looking at me waiting for me to tell him.

"I-, need a moment." I stood up and almost ran out of the room, once I was out I broke into a sprint only stoping when I was outside by the stabels.

I sat down on a bench, and did something I haven't done sice I was about 6. I cried. Not just a few tears, but every year of holding back fell away, I finnaly broke down.

"(Y/N)!" Eren came running out of the building strait to me.

"I'm, sorry Eren, I-I" I had to stop I couldn't say another word all I could do was cry.

"Hey, hey its ok." He sat down besode me and pulled me close to where I was crying in his chest. "I'm here for you, I always will be.

"Eren....I....I don't know how to tell you, a-and if I did.... you'd hate me...."

"(Y/N), I would never hate you. I love you." He pulled me closer and squeezed me tight. "Whatever happened its in the past, I'm here now, and I always will be."

"I want to tell you.....I really do but...no one knows and I'm scared of what might happen..."

"I promise you, nothing will change. I'm here." I nodded still sobbing, it was time to tell somebody and if it was anyone, he should be the one.

"When I was 4...my dad was promoted to captain in the survey corps, and had to leave me and my mom. For a year we heard nothing and he never came back.... my mom left.... with a bag of rope one day....and she n-never came b-back....she told me she was going to find daddy..... I always thought she had found him....and decided I was good where I was....a-a week after she left......s-some men came to the house.....they where criminals.....they made me work for them and work f-for a y-year...." I couldn't stop sobbing as Eren heald me listening. "I ran away after that, and I lived in an abandoned shack outside of the town....there was a little boy that used to come and slip me food...but one day his dad followed him....a-and he took my friend and b-burned my house and t-told me to stay away....After that I stole from the bread cart in town...a-and lived wherever I could....until........t-the colossal titan came.....and took the rest of my...life away...."

"(Y/N)...I didn't know....I wish I did...then maybe my family would have helped you, like we did Mikasa."

"I-, your not mad at me?" I looked up at him. "After everything I've done.

He wiped the tears from my eyes and healed my chin up. "That's the past, and id love you even if you stabbed me in the heart... I'm always here, and I promise nothing like that will ever happen again. Because dammit, I lived right beside you and I didn't know how hurt you where and I did nothing!!! I promise you with everything I have I will protect you." Then he kissed me,and for once, I didn't mind, amd for the first time I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him back.

Eren picked me up and carried me to my room laying me down. He laied down beside me, hugging me and holding me close.

"Eren?"

"Yes?"

"I love you too," and I drifted off to sleep.

Hey guys sorry if you wanted a lemon, my next story will include them and will have warnings so you can skip, but there you go.

Also I figured you guys would like to know the reason for my slow writing, so a couple weeks ago I found out I was pregnant, and I've been busy straitening everything out. So Yay!!!! Lol I'll try to update soon, please comment and vote for me thanks!