Everyday is practically the same. I wake up brush my teeth, do my hair, eat my breakfast and do my stuff I have to do for that day. Hmpfff... If i don't have to work as a waitress in my vacation, then I spend most of my time gaming or on social media. I don't like to post pics online, because of bad experiences I had before. There will always be hate on the internet and my emotions just can't handle that pain. I was kind of a nerd back in the day and the fear of rejection in people I big. I have to move on some day and actually start making effort in my socials but it's going step by step now.
I watch a couple from outside my window holding hands, they look so peaceful together. They walk on the pavement together hand in hand, I lose my thoughts while I try to make my breakfast. I tried to make bread with peanut butter before I head of to work but I accidentally dropped my knife while daydreaming about being that couple someday. When I picked up the knife the couple outside looked at me and quickly walked away. Ughhh.. I want that sooo bad. My mom walked in the room and saw the mess I left on the ground. I knew what words were to be coming out of her mouth. She looked at the mess and said I better clean it up quick and that I need to stop daydreaming about finding a boy, your time will come. "But mom you had it soo much easier in your time, you just find a boy close by an you actually managed to stay married with that boy till this day. Most people now seek people online to only hook up with for one day. It's not the same I feel like my time has to be now not another day. I just can't wait." My mom was done with my ranting about boys and while I was cleaning my mess, I heard my mom lecture me more about finding the right one later in life and that I have to be patient blah blah blah...
I cleaned the messed, my mom said thank you. My mom works as a nurse and has a kindhearted soul so she's often friendly, but she can be a strict mom in cleaning sometimes.
I ate my breakfast and watched some tiktoks before I went off to work as a waitress, I saw that my favorite tiktok boy was live. He lives like 60 miles away from me and I often came to his lives to have a friendly chat with him. I secretly have a crush on him but I always act like a friend. I quickly said hi to him and he said hi back. We talked about how we are doing and it made me feel good about this day. I think to myself, " I don't have to be jealous about that couple i saw earlier, you can do it yourself too! I leave the live and go off to work as a waitress, this is my fit:
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