>>>>Part 20
DEANS POINT OF VIEW
I drink until there's no alcohol left. I check my watch. 4:00AM. I get up from the couch, where I have been for past 8 hours. I walk slowly to keep myself from falling.
I get in my car and drive. Just drive. Eventually, I find a bridge. I stumble out of my car. I grab onto the edge of the bridge for support. I open the trunk of the Impala, grabbing my last bottle of whiskey.
I take a large drink, and tears roll down my face. I send the bottle crashing down. Pieces of glass fly everywhere.
I lay on the hood of my car.
You're so weak. My subconscious tells me.
You're supposed to suck it up. Move on with your life. You're the strong one.
I was tired of being the strong one. Tired of being the emotionless one. I wanted to be different. I wanted my brother. I wanted to live a normal life. And so did Sam. I took it all away from him.
I didn't want to be the tough guy anymore. I just wanted peace. I make my way over to the edge of the bridge. My vision is blurry, but I can see clearer now than I could ever see before.
I step up onto the beam, keeping my eyes on the rapids, flowing beneath me.
I look at the sky. It's beginning to become day. Pinks, oranges, and yellows blend together to make a beautiful sunset. It looks peaceful.
Even the fast waters look rested.
I think of all the hurt I have caused people close to me. Sam. Dad. Rayn. I hurt the people that I love.
I think of Cas, and I pray.
I let go of the higher bar I am holding onto and I feel somebody take my hand. It's Sam.
He smiles at me. I feel a slight wind to my right. Cas takes my other hand. I close my eyes and smile one last time.
I jump. We jump.
Team Free Will
