Måneskin imagines book

victoria/eating disorder

Waring- eating disorder some self harm

A/N- I just want to say from someone who has delt with this and is still dealing with this, you are perfect the way you are there is only one you and your so special and i love u guys a lot xxxx

Ethan pov

We all were at band practise
And noticed Victoria was acting strange. She was shaking and looked like she lost a lot of weight.
I didn't want to say anything but I was getting worried and I could see that Thomas  and daminao was too but I thought I would talk to her after practice.

Victoria pov

I haven't been sleeping well or eating well because I'm feeling really insecure, I see a lot of other prettier skinnier girls and I want to be like that so I decided to cut out some food so I could loose weight. I was feeling really weak due to the loss of food but beauty is pain I guess. We start practising when I see Ethan staring at me with a worried expression on his face, I just shrugged it off and got back to playing.

2 hours later

Vic POV
After we were finished practising the boys wanted to get some food but I told them I wasn't hungry and I'll eat later.

Damiano- what do u mean your not hungry your always hungry ?

Vic- well I'm not hungry now so drops it

I started to get annoyed because they were questioning me a lot

Thomas- r u sure your ok

And that's when I lost it I got up and started yelling at them

Vic- ITS NONE OF YOUR BUISNESS OK, IM FIND SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!

but all t hat yelling used up all my energy and I felt like fainting, I grabbed on the the couch but it was to late everything went dark

Ethans pov

We all rushed over to vic to try and help her but we were all still shocked on how she yelled at us, we then took her go the hospital and hoped for the best. We love Victoria a lot and seeing her like this makes us miserable

Victorias pov

I woke up in a white room wearing nothing but a hospital gown, I looked around and saw the band there looking at me with worried looks on their faces

Thomas- hey how are you feeling?

Vic- tired and weak

Ethan- well that makes sense you blood sugar is down and you haven't eaten in 5 days.

I just looked down and knew I was caught.

Damiano- bella why didn't you tell us you wernt eating we could of helped you

And that's when I started crying

Vic- because I don't love myself and I don't feel pretty and I didn't want to bother you guys

Ethan- honey you can never bother us we are always going to be here for you and may I say your so pretty the prettiest girl ever

Damiano- yes he is not lying if I wasn't with someone rn if probably be with u and I'm not joking your hotter than the sun and the sun is fucking hot

I started to laugh at his joke and that's when I realised that I don't need to be like anyone else I'm my own person and I'm perfect the way i am

Thomas- ok but now you need some rest but we bought you food because you look like a skeleton so eat up

They handed me chicken pan cakes, meat everything I could think of and it was all gone in 3 minutes

Once I'd finished eating I played back down to sleep again

Vic- thank you guys and I'm sorry I worried you

They all kissed me on the head and let me go back to sleep and after that day I never starved myself again