Moon and River - ||Seulrene||

CHAPTER 4

3 YEARS LATER......

Seulgi's POV

Me and my sister are in the side walk heading home now after me and the squad were talking about our plan, how to surprise Jiseul on her birthday.

It's been 3 years now when my sister woke up on her coma I was so glad that time that Jiseul didn't give up and didn't leave me but when the doctors said that Jiseul lost her memories after the accident I don't know what should I feel.... should I be sad because my sister didn't remember all of us or I should be happy that she won't suffer like I do remembering what happen to our family. It's been 5 years too when the accident happened I still vividly remember how we were just happy family back then and suddenly I woke knowing that I lost them not to add it was on my birthday, its still hurts knowing me and my sister don't have a parents now, it hurts everytime I need to lie to my sister that our parents leave us for unknown reason I know Jiseul have many questions running on her mind when it comes to our parents I know she wants to know what was the reason of them leaving us but Jiseul just keep it to her self because she doesn't want to feel burden.
Everytime when our school will tell us to bring our parents in family day or when sometimes tell us to share stories about family me and my sister always feel out of place even tho uncle and aunty Jung is always there who stand as our guardian but it still feels different, everytime I see other student spending time with their family i always envy them, I might look and act like a cold person but deep inside I want to cry and just wish for them to come back I miss my parents alot every night I always hide in my closet while crying longing for my parents...every time when my birthday comes I always tell uncle and aunty Jung that I don't want to celebrate my birthday because for me it's my fault that my parents died if maybe if I didn't exist maybe they're still alive that's why I always hate my existence.

Me and Jiseul still living with the Jung family because they said it's better for us to stay here for safety.... uncle and aunty are treating us well they treat us like their own daughter too they always let us feel that were not alone, uncle is still working as a prosecutor he's trying to find justice about my parents while aunty is treating us like her own daughter. Soojung, Bobby and yuri also taking care of me well they never let me feel that I was alone... they always remind me everytime to share my problems and always telling me that they will stay with me forever.

Because of them I found my self again and overcome my depression they stayed with me up until now I will always be thankful for them because if probably without them I already died for suffering depression and doing self harm.

" Unnie your spacing out again I wonder tho how you manage to walk home while spacing out." Jiseul said while laughing that makes me realize that we're already home.

When Jiseul notice that Im still quiet she asked me again. "Do you have a problem unnie, you can always share it to me you know I will be you listener"

"It's nothing Jiseul it's about our assignment" I said while ruffling her hair.

' sorry Jiseul I lied again'

"Okay I'm going inside first I need to pee hehehehhh" my sister said while trying not to pee yet.

After then I remembered that I still need to go to cafe to work, even though aunty and uncle give us money I still need to work even it's just part-time job. I can't just let myself depends on them everytime.

Them letting us live in their house and taking care of us is too much already I need to help them too that's why when I heard that there's a cafe that let us student work part-time I immediately applied and thank God they accepted me the money that I get from part-time is not that big but enough for the thing I need to buy like project and the rest of my money I keep it on my credit card, my parents left us a credit card that full of my parents money and savings it was millions but I never touch the money because I plan that only Jiseul will use the money when she's on her college and maybe only use that when the right time comes.