ᴀɴɢꜱᴛʏ ᴀᴅᴠᴇɴᴛᴜʀᴇꜱ

Nothing Heals

Thanks for Kiinoi for being first on my last chapter. I love a good first person. <3

12:00 AM, Midnight.

Tuesday, House.

Ever since Ruv left the house to stay at the hospital, Agoti has been having vivid nightmares. He could never sleep.

Even if he tried, he wouldn't. He would always be downstairs eating crackers or crying to himself in the bathroom.

Tabi and Whitty did nothing, because they never knew that this was happening.

Agoti would always drink a shot of vodka or sneak out onto the streets sometimes.

Today, he was sitting on the kitchen table. He buried his face into his arms.

Agoti knew that he'll be fine, but he can't just stop.

He got up and walked around the room. He wouldn't stop crying. It was late at night, and it was extremely cold.

Agoti never liked the cold. He would just always try and ignore it, but it got the feeling of him.

1:00 AM, 1 hour later.

Agoti had been up for an hour. He couldn't stop worrying about him. Ruv.

Eventually, Whitty walked downstairs.

"Agoti? What are you doing up so late?"

"..." No response.

"Look, I know that you're upset about him."

"It'll be alright."

"You know, he's going to be fine."

"..." Still, no response. The demon was just continuing to cry.

"You shouldn't blame yourself. Ruv's doing just fine."

"..."

"Are you even listening to me?"

"..."

"Look, you shouldn't blame yourself. You haven't even done anything wrong, squid."

"..."

"Go to your room, I'll be up there in a second."

"..."

"Can you hear me?"

"..."

"C'mon, bucko. We're going back to your room."

"i can't.. hear you.."

Whitty just sighs and takes Agoti by the wrist. He pulls him up the stairs and goes into his room.

"wait- what.."

"You're going to sleep."

Agoti lays on his bed. Tired and filled with discomfort. Whitty walks out of his room and locks the door.

A few minutes later, Agoti gets up and goes on his computer. It's 2:00 AM, but he didn't care. He just wanted to do something to clear his mind.

He opens Minecraft. He fiddles around in the world making structures and killing chickens.

Agoti sighs and closes his computer. He goes downstairs and takes a shot of vodka. Sure, he's asking to get himself killed slowly, but it felt nice.

The way the vodka tastes, he grew to like it.

If Ruv found out about this, he would be in tears.

Agoti had always thought of visiting him, but he didn't want to see his father look so depressed. He just wished he would get well quickly.

Tears slowly run down Agoti's face.

"i'm so sorry.. i never meant to.."

He throws the glass on the floor and goes back upstairs in the bathroom, crying to himself.

He knew none of it was his fault, but his brain was telling him that it was all his fault. If Ruv never found and adopted him, then he would be just fine.

Free from all of his responsibilities as a father.

Agoti's head was messing with him. Telling him that he's nothing. Just a waste of humanity. Never should existed. Never should have existed.

"i-i'm sorry.. dad.. ( Hic ), i never m-meant to.."

Agoti takes a bottle of vodka from the fridge and starts to drink it. Of cours, he felt tipsy.

His mind was fooling him.

If his family knew about this, he's fucked.

He knew that nothing heals. Even if it's mentally. You still have that scar in your heart.

Eventually, he finished the bottle and threw it down on the floor. Afterwards, he walked back upstairs and flopped on his bed.

He passed out afterwards.

Nothing heals. It never will.

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Nothing Heals

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