Role Reversal

Dive Into Your Past

The sound of your head hitting the table repeatedly echoed in the house, a few days had past and everyone was back to normal... for the most part. You had planned to explain a bit more in detail over resets and such but... you couldn't get the image of Papyrus and Blue riding you during your heat. Yep... their flushed faces, the way they looked when they came inside you, how they jerked themselves as one of the others fucked you...

"Stop it!" You shot up and backed into your chair and causing it to fall back, your body collided with the floor and everyone looked at you with raised brows.

"we didn't say anything doll." Red chuckled as the others looked at you a bit worried.

You groaned in reply and sat up rubbing your skull, those images would haunt your wet dreams to the end of the world.

"HUMAN, THE FLOOR IS STILL DIRTY I HAVEN'T CLEANED IT YET!" Blue shouted with worry over you getting your clean clothes dirty. Fuck... to pure!

"S-sorry!" You stood and fixed your chair and with a sigh took your spot ones more, everyone was looking at you curiously, you choose to ignore them and face plant the table once more with a groan.

"are we just going to stay here all day as you contemplate your life choices?" Stretch was puffing on his vape pen looking you over with a lazy smirk. You put your hand up and slam your face back onto the table before sitting up fully and placing your elbows on the table.

"I am done... for now. Back to the story."

"story?" Sans questioned.

"Business! I mean business!" You groaned and rubbed down your face. Your mind is so fucked up right now. You straighten and look them over. "Where were we?"

"You told us about the resets, and how you have no idea how to stop it." Green confirmed.

"Ah yes! That.... well that is basically it then. I have no idea how to stop the resets and they are random, so if I go vanishing again, you may not remember this time." You shrug at the thought.

"wait what do you mean we might not remember next time!?" Red shouted slamming a palm on the table in anger.

"Well, the last reset, you guys were in the underground, it might have something to do with why you remembered me this time. The underground pumps out high levels of magic because of it being gathered and collected around there, monsters living there effected the environment. You guys were luck to remember, but there is no guarantee you will remember the next reset." You tried to explain in a calm manner, but the idea of being forgotten by even more people you care about caused an ache in your soul.

"even if we were in the underground when it happens?" Sans asked with a dull tone.

"Yeah. I still don't know fully why you remembered me or the others. I don't even know if it was because of the underground or what."

Their shoulders slump at your words and Red even leans back in his chair.

"Well... what have you tried as a means of stopping the resets?" Green asked calmly. You frown at the question, you've done shitty things to try and stop them.

"First things first... you need to understand, it's a shitty place, knowing everything that will happen, and not being able to stop it. I did various things to try and stop it, or to try and control it," You shrugged "nothing worked obviously. I even tried different things to try and trigger others memories over it, that too; didn't work."

They looked at you with questioning looks but didn't say anything.

"At first I tried getting them to remember, using words they might have heard, actions to trigger a deja vu. Then I tried influencing them with magic, using mine to tug at their memories to draw them out, that didn't work I ended up...." You frowned at this, you nearly forgot about your actual crimes against monster kind.

"doll?" Red pulled you from your self hate and you looked up.

"R-right... um.... I'm a horrible person, so don't freak out when I tell you these things." You felt the need for the disclaimer. They all seemed a bit put off by that but didn't press you into it.

"I used my magic to try and pull the memories from certain monsters, it did not go well. They ended up dusting." Well there it was, your claim for being a murderer.

They blinked a few times before leaning away and reading your face. You were not lying.

"Y-you Killed Them?" Blue asked with worry, you only nodded.

"It was an accident... the first time. Then the other times it was to learn, they always came back with the next reset, so I didn't think much of it. I know i should have stopped, but... every time I thought I was getting close to my answer. I eventually got it, I didn't like it either. Something was stopping them from remembering, and as they got closer to remembering it was like their body started to shut off on them, then...poof. Dust on the table" You toyed with your fingers, unable to look at any of them.

"how many?" Red spoke up, you flinched at the ton, it sounded dark.

"I used different monsters but if you count how many times I did it, regardless of the monster... over 400 times. between 28 different monsters." Your voice was soft, it held shame at your past actions.

"What was stopping them from remembering?" G finally asked, he had his arms crossed, taking the information in.

"No idea, it looked like... coding? 0s and 1s going across a screen. I dived deep into the memories with my magic and found it, every time I got to deep they would die before I could see more." You gripped your hands together, intertwining your fingers.

"Coding? Like computer programing coding?" Green questioned, you nodded and shrugged.

"I am not sure if it was computer codes specifically, but I know what I saw. A black void of sorts, a list of codes running down a screen in neon colors, 0s and 1s and a few mismatched numbers, that were glitched out." You frown at the memories of the texts, at first you had been scared to find them and even said you would never go back... but you did... then again... and again... and again...

"what did you do after you found out about this?" Stretch took a puff of his vape and gave you a lazy look.

"Nothing, I didn't know what to do, so I gave up trying to force their memories and tried other means, I tried intimate relationships, hoping being connected on a deeper level would trigger them, didn't work."

"who'd you try that on?" Sans spoke, his tone was annoyed and curious in one go.

"Grillby and Toriel. I have bonded with them on numerous occasions but it always ends with the reset, even had a few kids with them... never work." You smiled a bit at the happy memories.

"Is that all you tried?" Green crossed his arms and looked you over.

"I think we should talk about something else for a while..." That smile turned to a frown.

Souls?" Papyrus finally spoke up for the first time today, everyone looked at him in confusion before they remembered souls actually do exist.

"Sure... we can talk about them." You shrugged.