TWO WORDS THREE LETTERS I DO (under editing)

Chapter 1

I dedicate my first chapter to the very first person who supported me in writing. My very very dear brother.
-kuya J!

LEA/POV/

"Now I'm promoting Lea Ysabelle Sarmiento to be our new head manager in this Paradise hotel and Resort" said ma'am Vina with full of smile in her eyes.

She offered her right hand to me for a hand shake which I immediately accepted it.

"Thank you po ma'am. It's a pleasure for me to get this high position, and I really promise na hindi ko po kayo bibiguin. I will do my very best to become a very good head manager." I sincerely said.

"I know Lea, you deserve It. Again, congratulations!" she smiled back at me and we just make a casual hand shake.

"Let us all cheers for our new head manager!" she then grabbed her wine as she look at me.

"Cheers!" I smiled and toasted my wine with her.

"Congratulations po, ma'am Lea Ysabelle!" The other employees just continually congratulating me. I just smiled back at them and enjoy the night.

Fast Forward

It has been almost 2 hours since the celebration for my promotion was done but then look at me. It's already 12 mid at night yet I can't still find my sleep so, I just decided to stroll outside.

I sit here on the bench and enjoy the view of the beach as the cold breeze  brushing against my body.

I look at the serene view. How I love looking at the moon and stars that giving calmness to my soul. I can say that this  is the best place where you can find your solitudes. Iyong tipong walang ingay, maliban lang sa tunog ng alon ng tubig, perhaps It is also good for us sometimes to hear the silence away from the noisy world.

This place is just absolutely beautiful and peaceful. The place where you can able to feel free to express your emotions maybe, because of my past that still awakening me up. As much as I want to moved on, this mind and heart— it can't, I can't.

Ewan ko ba pero para akong binabangungot lagi ng nakaraan. I'm always saying to myself that I made the right decision and I just choose what is right for us, but the conscience is always up on me still. Dahil kahit anong tama ng desisyon ko, naka-sakit parin ako ng Tao.

Every time the memories of ditching our wedding will flashed back into my mind, how I regret my stupidity on that day. I mean, yes. I did run away bride before, but I have my reasoned. My only choice on that day is to run. Run all my problems in life. Run this unfair world. I know I have a chance to face it all, pero duwag kasi ako eh, natatakot ako. Pero hindi naman lahat ng bagay na mahalaga sa atin dito sa mundo na mahal natin kailangan parati nating ipag-laban? lalo na kung 'yung pilit na gusto mong ipag-laban, hindi ka pa sigurado kung may patutunguhan.

As much as I want to say I do before, I can't because I needed to let him go. I had to let him go because it is the best solution I know for us, for me to give a space between us. I can't just marry him with full of confusion in my mind like my heart and my mind is battling, what if pinakasalan ko siya? then I'll suddenly feel na hindi ko na pala siya mahal? hindi na pala ako masaya sa kanya? because what if we're not just really meant for each other? That he don't deserve me. He don't deserve a girl who easily give up.