Does He know? (Completed)

Part 2: Deeper...

Wedding plans were made. I had a beautiful big amazing church wedding. I could see the clear blue sky and not a cloud in sight and the beautiful bright green grass was blowing in the wind waving to me as I walked down the aisle. I was wearing a cream French lace gown with an empire waist and cap sleeves. It was very slim fitted through the bust, waist and hips and had a fish tail like bottom. There was also a dark pink rose band at the empire waist with a formed bow at the back of the dress.

As I looked up I saw him looking as elegant as ever in a Mir Jin designer three piece double breasted suit. He reminded me of James Bond so much. I could not keep my eyes off of his charming but nervous smile.  After the ceremony we had champagne and cake and we celebrated all night long. Although I have had dreams of how my wedding should be, this was officially the best ever.

My father once told me that marriage was like a school that you chose to attend just that instead of getting your certificate at the end, you get your certificate before you start because they expect and know that you to be studying and getting to know your other half for a the rest of your life. I did not believe his statement until I found myself doing the same thing.

Just when things were going really well for both of us, I fell out of love. I cannot even call it love anymore, it was pure infatuation. But he still showed his love. I am sure that he still loved me but I did not anymore.

No wonder half of my heart was screaming a big no the night he proposed to me but I said yes. I should have thought about it. My next step would have been to file for a divorce but coming to think of George had done nothing wrong and it would be really unkind of me to file for a divorce and he had not seen it coming. I was really good at hiding my feelings and pretending that I was a happily married woman with no kids. Second, a divorce was also nowhere to be found in my dictionary. I should have had a rethink but now it is absolutely too late.