E.X.I.T 22, a very successful multi-platinum 4 member girl group gets dropped from their label Interscope Records due to constant fighting , and altercations in public. E.X.I.T 22 begins to lose hope after just about every major label has denied the...
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The incident last week has been living in my mind since it happened. My heart feels empty. The only thing that's been keeping me going these last couple of days has been music...per usual. This is the first time ever I've felt ashamed for being Muslim. Why couldn't we have taken on my mother's religion instead? I mean, I don't even get along with my father nor his family.
In deep thought, I sat in front of the piano and played a few random keys before something popped up in my head. Something I feel at this very moment, I'm a sinner in De's parents eyes. My religion is a sin. And because of that I stand out, im the outsider. Maybe if I converted, they would love me right?
I don't wanna chance that though...and I love Allah. He's never stirred me wrong...
I guess except now.
"My lover's got humor He's the giggle at a funeral Knows everybody's disapproval I should've worshipped him sooner If the heavens ever did speak He's the last true mouthpiece Every Sunday's getting more bleak A fresh poison each week "We were born sick" You heard them say it..."
I sang quietly as I lazily stroked the piano keys in the basement of De's house. Today was a full day of helping De write and make beats for the groups of Da Bassment crew. Sista has a couple of songs coming out in about 2 weeks, me and Tim have continued to write for Elgin and will be recording him soon. Static and his group playa just did an interview today in Manhattan discussing their new song Ridin Around featuring Tim. That just came out today actually and it charted at number 12 so far, which isn't bad at all considering this is only their second single that came out. All of these successes within the label, It's great and im very happy for everybody, but honestly I couldn't wait to just get home and write.
"My church offers no absolutes He tells me "Worship in the bedroom" The only Heaven I'll be sent to Is when I'm alone with you I was born sick, but I love it Command me to be well"
I haven't been feeling like myself lately. With everything that's been going on these past 4 or 5 months, I am overwhelmed. Actually, more like depressed...I'm depressed. Between being raped and beaten by my ex, humiliated by De when he was caught kissing another woman (chapter 24), the drama on my birthday for kissing Elgin, fighting Radiah, Devantes raging episode over the music video with Jagged Edge, and now being completely humiliated and shunned by De's parents. When does it end? Nowadays I even find it hard to smile and I'm a fairly bubbly person.
