𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑, 𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄

여덟

despair. numbness. hurt. sadness. self-hatred.
those were all the overwhelming emotions he felt.

why did he need to feel?

" why did you thank me .. hannie? i h-hurt you... i hurt you .. why .. "
lee know particularly put emphasis on his word, screaming every single syllable out.

jisung could have sworn on his heart that he saw lee know's eyes become clearer and not fog like anymore. like he just recovered from a strange ordeal.
" it's fine hyungie! i h-hope you feel b-better, i w-will always be h-here for y-you! i w-will heal you i promise! "

lee know's heart cracked, dryly chuckling at the boy's ambitious wish. although he couldn't deny he felt comforted by the statement. yet guilt overwhelmed any other emotion he could feel at that moment, settling deep within his bones, an unshakable feeling that had a death grip on him.

" hannie. that's not okay. it's not fine. hyung's so sorry.. "
lee know was abruptly cut off by jisung suddenly hugging him, wrapping him in a warm embrace despite how jisung's knees stared to buckle, threatening to give out.

" it's just that... i get so overwhelmed with my emotions.. i don't have any space to feel for others."

" it's o-okay hyungie! i-im happy! but how did hyungie know my name? hannie doesn't know that hyungie knows his name... is Lee know hyungie still going to write hannie letters? "

lee know chucked softly under his breath , eyes glistening with fondness. he was so whipped for hannie and and the endearing way he spoke in third person was absolutely adorable.

" hannie, i know your name because i witnessed what happened with hyeon.. hyungie is so sorry that i didn't save you immediately. your voice is so sweet, I instantly recognised you. of course hannie, we can still write to each other. "

" can you be with me, hannie? "

" mhm! "

jisung nodded his head eagerly!

" letter lovers? "

" maybe."

" so... yes?"

" yes."