The Spell User

Chapter ~1~ ||Journaling||

Do correct me on any spelling mistakes and grammar mistakes.  Any criticism is welcome. :)

Dabi Pov:

Journal entry #1:  November 13, 3101

I really do not want to do this, but Kurogiri said it would be "good" for me.  I don't understand how writing in some stupid ass notebook is good for me!  Ughhhhhhhhhh. 
 Why did I even agree to doing this?  Oh right, Kurogiri said he was going to cut off my "free time".  That's the only time I have to relax and get away from missions!  Besides when I have to sleep, of course. 

Oh man, I really don't know what to write here anymore.  Maybe I should write about my past?  I can hide the notebook easily.  That loose floor board compartment should fit this notebook.

I guess it wouldn't hurt to try to write about my past?  Maybe I shouldn't do that this close to the beginning of this entry.  Start small, Dabi.

So my day.  It's been absolutely awful.  Never have I ever had to deal with the shit that I did today.  I almost strangled Shigaraki.  I really wanted to.  Ever since we kidnapped that blasty kid from UA, Shigaraki's been getting on my ass about every little thing.  I didn't even want to kidnap him.  It wasn't MY fault that the "heroes" found the base!  Shigaraki is supposed to be the leader of this damned League of Villains and yet the only thing he can fucking to is complain about every little thing that doesn't go his way.  

He was the one who didn't even consider the fact that someone could've had a tracker on them.  I made sure that I didn't when we left.  I told Kurogiri to not send us to the base right after, so that we could check everyone.  No one thought to consider that the Nomu had a tracker because I had EVERYONE check themselves.  Ughhhhh.  I hate assuming and ever since then I've been making sure that I take even more precaution than usual.  And now it's making my anxiety worse.  

Anyways, like I said, Shigaraki is being a whiny little bitch.  I do one thing wrong and suddenly I'm being screamed at.  This happened this morning too.  Everyone was super tired, especially me because I did a mission last night.  I fell asleep at the counter of the bar because of how sleep deprived I was and then suddenly I was pushed out of the chair I was in.  He started screaming at me for falling asleep EVEN THOUGH WE WEREN'T DOING ANYTHING!  It actually scared me at first because it reminded me of my dad screaming at my sibling, our mother, and I.  Dad didn't always yell at us though, it was only after my baby brother was born that he started to scream at us.  

Anyways.

Shigaraki was screaming and all that good stuff.  I don't even remember what he was screaming at me, but I do know that he was being a hypocrite, or whatever.  I got mad and stood up.  I wasn't going to sit there on the floor and let myself get yelled at by a man child.  I was LIVID.  I wanted to hit him or something, but that would've made matters worse.  I don't let myself act on anger.  I let him finish, and because he's been acting like this for a month, I didn't even tell him off.  I wanted to.  I just went to my bedroom.  

I came back out when Kurogiri texted me saying that Shigaraki was gone.  Kurogiri has been helping me out as much as he can ever since Shigaraki started this whole thing.  I owe him.  I know that all the others in the league have noticed Shigaraki's new behavior, and they've all said that I should either drop the league or talk to Shigaraki about this.  

They notice how I'm being treated and then don't even go to do something.  Go figure, huh?  Do they really think I haven't tried to talk about this with him?  Because I have, many times in fact.  All of which ended up with me getting hurt.  I really don't want to fight him and I know that my quirk isn't suited for indoors.  I don't want to burn our new base down, goddamnit!  I can't even go on the offensive without my quirk, if I do, Shigaraki will be too close and then he could hurt me even worse.  We had a good bond before this whole ordeal.  Dare I say we were even friends.  I really don't know what happened.