The Gentleman's Journal

DAY 2

Ok, so I'm in between class periods right now. I told Mister Egg what happened last night, because I thought he should know. He knew why I got that strange feeling last night. he said that I'm "gay for Mister Cheese." I'm blushing just THINKING about it.  I don't think I am... But if I AM? Well, this is bad. I don't think Mister Cheese is into males. Then again... What do I know about his sexuality? Nothing. I still have much to learn... I guess that's why I'm still in school. I hope things turn out ok between us.... Maybe I should hide my feelings, so that things won't be awkward. Yes, that would probably be best. I don't want to lose Mister Cheese... Anyway, I need to get to my next class. I'll update at lunch, which is after this class.

Ok, so it's lunch now. Mister Cheese and Mister Egg are sitting at my table, talking about their futures as crewmates. I wonder what Mister Cheese is going to do once he gets his crewmate's license... Maybe We'll be on the same skeld. Mister Cheese is staring at me... Is he embarrassed about what happened last night? Or... does he LIKE me?! Oh Hell, I don't know anything anymore... At least today's FRIDAY, so I get to relax for the weekend. Oh, Hang on, Mister Egg is trying to ask me something...

WHAT A GOD DANG FOOL I AM! Mister Cheese and Mister Egg asked me to the movies, and I said YES. I ORIGINALLY was going to spend the weekend NOT thinking about Mister Cheese! Now I have to be AROUND HIM! ....Sorry, that was rude. I GET to be around him. Sometimes I take having him around for granted, believe it or not. Sometimes I forget my manners... But I try not to let that happen too much.

*Sigh*...I just can't help falling in love with him...

There.

I said it.

God, that was difficult. I hope I never have to say that again. I need to get to my classes now, so I'll update after school.

Good Lord... I just got home, and I saw Mister Cheese sneaking out of his dorm with a DOG. (pets are NOT allowed in our dorms. even FISH.) Mister Cheese said his name's CHEDDAR. Apparently when he had his sign-twirling job, he got into an accident with some rotten-ass punks, an ended up in the hospital with Cheddar. I have the mind to hunt down those little shits and- NO. WHY AM I THINKING VIOLENT?! AND I NEVER CURSE! God, I'm dumb... I should just disappear... just die... nobody would miss me anyway... Mister Cheese would work for someone named "The Lady" and marry her... Mister Egg is already dating his girlfriend, Ria... but hah, who knows how long THATS going to last... I'm going to go get a knife...

...I'm back. and NO, i'm not DEAD. Mister Cheese had come into my room to ask for help with homework, when he saw me cutting my arm. He screamed, I screamed, and everything after that is a blur. But I'm ok now. My arm is stitched up, and it doesn't really hurt anymore. Plus, my head is much clearer now. Mister Cheese and Mister Egg are really upset with me though; they were both crying. Mister Egg even cursed: he asked me why the fuck I wanted to commit suicide. I don't know why I was being such an idiot, but I'm feeling better now. Anyway, I need to get some sleep, or Mister Cheese is going to MURDER me. I feel like I should get used to him threatening to murder people.