The wilting flower -hoseok x bts-

-10-

Third person pov...
The boys waited outside for namjoon and heard several shouts from behind the room. Eventually the door slammed open and Mina came stomping out.

"I hate you! You ruin everything!"
She shouted at her older brother.

Namjoon just stood at the door with a dejected look on his face. The six noticed this immediately and seokjin came forward to comfort him.

"Hey its alright. She has to face the consequences of breaking the rules. You did not ruin anything."
The elder said as he patted namjoons back.

But he just let out a sigh as tears welled up in his eyes. There comes back that hidden guilt and familiar lump in his throat.

"Thank you hyung. But i think I just need some time alone."

They watched namjoon walk to his room with worried looks on their faces.

"Minas hate is hurting him. He still blames himself."

They all sigh and walk to their own rooms.

Hoseok pov...
I woke in the middle of the night with an aching feeling in my stomach and chest. I slowly got up to go downstairs and eat something. But as soon as I reached toward the cabinet my mother slapped me across the face.

"You fat pig get away from our food! We are low on money this month, we can't afford to feed a murderer!"

When she said that last line I felt tears fill my eyes and I immediately ran upstairs falling and hitting my face on the way up. I felt blood running down my cheek but I kept going until I got into my room.

She's right. Is all I can think. Funny of me to think I'm worthy to eat. I laughed humourlessly as tears rolled down my cheek.

It's all your fault
Murderer
Killer
You don't deserve anything
Your worthless

The voices come back and whisper in my head. Urging me to do the unthinkable.

I begin to feel that familiar itch and my mind starts to drift to my bathroom mirror. But then I think of Jackson. I run to my window after locking my door and immediately crawl out onto my roof. Then I use our tree to get to his window and I knock on it frantically.

He sees me and opens it catching me as I fall into his arms.

"Jackson I can't anymore. It hurts so much. I can't stop the itching. I can't breathe. Jackson help me. I can't stop the voices. I need to get away."
I say breathlessly in haste as each minute I have to think the more I want to hurt myself.

He panics and hugs me tight. I just cry harder as my breath quickens.

"Hoseok just tell me what you need. Im here for you."

"Take me away. Please. Just for a while."

Jackson nods and he puts his jacket on me aswell as one on himself. He picks me up and carrys me outside on his back. He walks towards the woods and I immediately question him in fear.

"Where are we going! It's late at night there's dangerous stuff in the woods!"

"Just trust me hoseok. I know the perfect place to get your mind off things."

I sigh and nod. I already feel better just being away from my house.