falling for your best friend is hard but have you ever fall for your enemy?
Yes, Jungkook does.And it's no surprise when he found himself wounded along the way of falling.
But he's better now. He doesn't have swollen eyes with red rim all over, his lip is not chaps and no he absolutely doesn't look like a walking zombie from yesterday.
Over the years, Jungkook has come to learn how to cover himself, his feelings, everything. And he's doing a fantastic job with it too.
It's okay. It's all good. He'll be fine.
It's not like he can do anything with it anyway. Even if his heart is broken until he can't even count then what? Even when he cry his eyes out till he fall asleep from exhaustion and not real sleep, then what? Even when his smile is so fake that it started to scared him whenever he looks at himself in front of the mirror, again then what?
Because then again.
It's not like he can do anything, anyway.
It's just a rejection they said. Get over it, they also said. But it's all, always easier said than done, ain't it?
Because right now Jungkook think him jumping off a cliff is easier then trying to move on. It will probably hurt less.
He can't blame Taehyung. No. Why would he?
You can't force your feelings on someone, can't threaten them to fall for you. Because it's not—not worth it. At the end of the day it's a forceful ideal of love and no genuine feelings involved.
And Jungkook—his love is not that cheap. He'd rather have his heart broken than having his love so low- so cheap he has to beg for it. Jungkook will love Taehyung with all his heart- love him to skin and bone but will never— in his entire life beg to be love.
Jungkook would rather die than for someone to push themselves into loving him.
He has called himself pathetic, but not to that point. He still knows his worth. And there's no way he'd stood that low.
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There's nothing much going on at school. Jungkook has tried all his hardest to make the tension around them— not awkward.
It worked.
Maybe—maybe because Taehyung really bought what he had said yesterday, that it was just a silly joke.
